arrrrgghhh
Yes. I have a short fuse. I'm actually willing to say that I might just have NO fuse at all. Whichever. But either way my "buttons" are pushed extremely easily. Don't be amused with yourself if you're able to get to me. Annoying fuckfaced people just annoy the shit out of me and I can't stand it.
I can't wait to get out of here. I wish that I could just pack my bags and leave for college NOW. I really do. I have letters written to my family so I wouldn't have to stay an extra day and work on that..I'm all set. Can't wait.
It's sad to say that my family is part of the reason that I want to leave but it's true. My sister is one of those people who push my buttons. As well as my mom. And they're very good at it. They both probably know this too. And I'm sure they're very amused with themselves. Good for them. I know it's sad I want to leave in part because of them but it's just the truth. I can't help it and I won't apologize for it. I wish that it wasn't like that. But that's just life I guess so whatever.
I really have no interest in staying home and "spending time" or babysitting my sisters. I want to be OUT doing what I WANT to do with people that I WANT to be with. I've spent plenty of time with my family and it's not coming to a complete end anytime soon so I really don't think of it as a big deal.
I can't wait until I'm gone and JILL has to do shit like this for once. She'll throw fucking fits and go insane about having to watch Megan but I've been doing it longer and more than she ever will especially since there were 2 of them and she'll only get Megan. Jill was a terror when she was little... still is. And I'm sick of it. I try hard. I really do. I try to bite my tongue and just keep my mouth shut and not say things but I can't do that with people that won't try for me either.
My mom's friends ask me EVERY TIME they see me (no matter how many times they've asked before) where I'm going to school. ANd then they say OHHHH I my so and so goes there! I'll give you their number and you can hang out! NO. I really don't want to. I don't want any help and I don't want to meet anyone related to these people that annoy me and can't even remember if I'm graduating or where I'm going to school. I can do things myself. I don't have a hard time making friends at all and I just can't wait to get out and do things on my own and meet new people and friends and just be doing something that is going to be my own. I can't wait for that.
OK.. GOOD things.
I really want to make my schedule too. Another thing I'm really excited about.
I really ahve to go to bed bath and beyond soon too with Maggie to shop for my dorm and stuff. I ordered my sheets yesterday and sent in the orientation form...FINALLY.
Maggie's last day at work is Saturday and I'm gonna miss her like hell. I adore her. We're still hanging out and stuff after that but she has to go to Manhattan soon so I won't see her as much. And I'll have no one good at work with me.
I decided I should stay at Eckerd for the summer since no one else will hire me just for the summer.
2 days until GRADUATION!!!!!! So exciting
I have to get more cameras and my other pictures developed
I also have to cash my check and buy graduation shoes which I'll probably do Thursday.
Tonight I have to socialize with my family which I don't want to do. My grammy's coming over here to see Jill before her dance and John will probably come and then I think we're going out to dinner. I don't feel like talking. I relaly don't. I want to go out with my friends and people that don't need to ask fifty million questions... they just know me already.
OK I'm done because I could keep writing forever at this point and I don't want to bore you... I'm sure I"ll have more to add about later...
bye loves ;)
I can't wait to get out of here. I wish that I could just pack my bags and leave for college NOW. I really do. I have letters written to my family so I wouldn't have to stay an extra day and work on that..I'm all set. Can't wait.
It's sad to say that my family is part of the reason that I want to leave but it's true. My sister is one of those people who push my buttons. As well as my mom. And they're very good at it. They both probably know this too. And I'm sure they're very amused with themselves. Good for them. I know it's sad I want to leave in part because of them but it's just the truth. I can't help it and I won't apologize for it. I wish that it wasn't like that. But that's just life I guess so whatever.
I really have no interest in staying home and "spending time" or babysitting my sisters. I want to be OUT doing what I WANT to do with people that I WANT to be with. I've spent plenty of time with my family and it's not coming to a complete end anytime soon so I really don't think of it as a big deal.
I can't wait until I'm gone and JILL has to do shit like this for once. She'll throw fucking fits and go insane about having to watch Megan but I've been doing it longer and more than she ever will especially since there were 2 of them and she'll only get Megan. Jill was a terror when she was little... still is. And I'm sick of it. I try hard. I really do. I try to bite my tongue and just keep my mouth shut and not say things but I can't do that with people that won't try for me either.
My mom's friends ask me EVERY TIME they see me (no matter how many times they've asked before) where I'm going to school. ANd then they say OHHHH I my so and so goes there! I'll give you their number and you can hang out! NO. I really don't want to. I don't want any help and I don't want to meet anyone related to these people that annoy me and can't even remember if I'm graduating or where I'm going to school. I can do things myself. I don't have a hard time making friends at all and I just can't wait to get out and do things on my own and meet new people and friends and just be doing something that is going to be my own. I can't wait for that.
OK.. GOOD things.
I really want to make my schedule too. Another thing I'm really excited about.
I really ahve to go to bed bath and beyond soon too with Maggie to shop for my dorm and stuff. I ordered my sheets yesterday and sent in the orientation form...FINALLY.
Maggie's last day at work is Saturday and I'm gonna miss her like hell. I adore her. We're still hanging out and stuff after that but she has to go to Manhattan soon so I won't see her as much. And I'll have no one good at work with me.
I decided I should stay at Eckerd for the summer since no one else will hire me just for the summer.
2 days until GRADUATION!!!!!! So exciting
I have to get more cameras and my other pictures developed
I also have to cash my check and buy graduation shoes which I'll probably do Thursday.
Tonight I have to socialize with my family which I don't want to do. My grammy's coming over here to see Jill before her dance and John will probably come and then I think we're going out to dinner. I don't feel like talking. I relaly don't. I want to go out with my friends and people that don't need to ask fifty million questions... they just know me already.
OK I'm done because I could keep writing forever at this point and I don't want to bore you... I'm sure I"ll have more to add about later...
bye loves ;)