The Move
Well, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I've decided that I've come to a point in my life where it is time to move on. I've been living in the same general area since I moved here 10+ years ago. I've had a lot of shit go down in the time I've been living here, good and bad. For some reason I just can't seem to shake the bad, and sorta having them in my face by living here doesn't help at all either. I've been dealing with a lot of stress over the past few months and I think it has something to do with the fact that I feel like I can't move on from my past, I am much overdue for some bridge burning that I should have taken care of a while ago. Not to mention the fact that just being in a city like Phoenix isn't exactly the easiest place to live a more calm life. I used to feel like I couldn't live without the city but some recent events have sorta opened my eyes to the fact that it is more the opposite, I feel like I need to be in a large city because it's all I've ever known but I think getting away would be the best move for me right now. Now don't get me wrong I love all my friends and family here to death and I won't be going like 20 states away or anything, I just need to get far away enough where I don't have to stress as much anymore, it's just getting hard to bear. So I decided in about 6 months or so (when my lease is up at my apartment) Craig and I will be either going up north or out west. We're still gonna be living in AZ, just not near the city, we were thinking if we go out west it would be to an area like Goodyear, or if we go up north it would be an area like Anthem or New River. If I feel comfortable enough with it when my lease is up, I would really like to buy a house in one of those areas, but if I don't feel like I can we will rent a house in the same areas. I don't want anyone to think I'm running away from my problems, if that's what I thought was the way to deal with my problems, I would have moved away years ago. It's just there is too much stuff to deal with where I am and it's overwhelming. I am actually really excited about moving, I think it will be a step in the right direction and I will finally be able to live a little more simply. Anyway, I just wanted to throw this out here incase anybody hears about it through the grapevine and misinterprets my reasons for wanting to move.