1 47 am...Bottoms up to better days
its is exactly 1 47 pm...completly trashed out of my ass...im sorry if my spelling will be horrible...i catn really put words together...i realized tonight a very valuable thing..i finally realized that ppl..pretend to know themselves...they pretend to know what they like..how they feel..they think by doing a certain action..it will help them improve there...how can i say this..their image...maybe their popularity...im not quite sure..heres an example..these two girls who look pure underage start making out in front of a camera...pretty much all the guys that are there gather around them..and drool over that.;..the girls get the attention that they want....what they dont realize is that the guys are around them keep calling them "hoes" and "sluts",...but they wont hear that cauz their too involved with themselves....and what i realized through this is that....i know myself..i know who iam...i know what i will not do..and what i will do..theres a certain line i will never...i realized a shit load...most limkely like i said who i am...im an independent women,,who knows i deserve only but the best but i am not talking about love..i am talkingh anbout succcess..i deserve sucess o deserve an education...a life of my own..i deserve everything ive ever dreamed of... and i do realize also that im a fuck up..and i accept thjat...i accept the fact that i will not find the right guy cauz i am not happy with myself i realize..i will not find love..and i accept that..and learned to live with that.i wil be happy with success...love for me isnt success..i hope u all realixed this cauz i am talking from my bottomless drunkness.....and like i said ive come to terms with this..and i am having a great time..friday night.......1 57 am...and a great night