let me whine..
i haven't slept in 2 days
i feel like shit
i'm thinking of someone i probably shouldn't be and i miss him SO BAD. Back in 6th grade i had this boyfriend, he was my friend's cousin and mostly it was just like, i'd see him around school or i'd talk to him on the phone and that was the whole relationship. I was 12. I didn't understand love at that age. I was cleaning up my closet the other day and I found the bracelet he gave to me back then, and it just brings back memories and makes me think of how shitty I was to him and how much I regret it now. I want a second chance. Is that weird?...that I haven't talked to him in almost 8 years and NOW I want a second chance? That I want the second chance, when I WAS THE ONE WHO BROKE UP WITH HIM? This sucks. Just a boyfriend in general would be nice, but I want one like he was to me. He always made sure he told me he loved me and he was always just really sweet. I need a guy with a personality like that. I just need a boyfriend. I'm tired of being single. I posted a bulletin about this on myspace, his cousin is my friend there, I hope she sees it and says something to him. I didn't mention all this "second chance" stuff, just that I was wondering how he's doing these days...
It's weird, I need sleep.
On the plus side (since I haven't bragged about it here yet) - I have a sexy laptop!
i feel like shit
i'm thinking of someone i probably shouldn't be and i miss him SO BAD. Back in 6th grade i had this boyfriend, he was my friend's cousin and mostly it was just like, i'd see him around school or i'd talk to him on the phone and that was the whole relationship. I was 12. I didn't understand love at that age. I was cleaning up my closet the other day and I found the bracelet he gave to me back then, and it just brings back memories and makes me think of how shitty I was to him and how much I regret it now. I want a second chance. Is that weird?...that I haven't talked to him in almost 8 years and NOW I want a second chance? That I want the second chance, when I WAS THE ONE WHO BROKE UP WITH HIM? This sucks. Just a boyfriend in general would be nice, but I want one like he was to me. He always made sure he told me he loved me and he was always just really sweet. I need a guy with a personality like that. I just need a boyfriend. I'm tired of being single. I posted a bulletin about this on myspace, his cousin is my friend there, I hope she sees it and says something to him. I didn't mention all this "second chance" stuff, just that I was wondering how he's doing these days...
It's weird, I need sleep.
On the plus side (since I haven't bragged about it here yet) - I have a sexy laptop!