i'm going on a trip. i have maps. i'll wear my seatbelt, i will arrive and laugh. it's better to walk away from something knowing that one person has won. seems like whenever i've won, i've lost twice as much. pride has never meant more to me and i can only blame my childhood that turned me agile and cold.
i remember people in my past and when i recall dates and facts...
it was really not long ago. my confusion of past with present is a good sign that i've come too far only to see that its not nearly far enough....
in the end:
i see the girl on the escalator. the one with the sad eyes. the only thing this moment reveals is that its me.
and there is no such thing as a sadness when its only me. sometimes they are surrounded with people, but feel alone. but i have no one. and i'm still alone. should this be so obvious to me? i cry because i don't know any better. i should have listened to what was right. now i have no understanding.
i saw someone who didn't have as much as much as me and i felt fortunate. then i wondered if i was wrong. they probably had so much more and looked at me the same way. now i've grown cold and my bones are like ice.
when was the last time i felt like i cared? i can't even remember the last time i felt ...
you.
and watching you walk away, watching you leave down the stairs and only look back once when we both knew you should have stayed, watching the person who meant most to me leave without a goodbye....was like writing a song that you already know the words to...writing something you don't even believe in.
i remember people in my past and when i recall dates and facts...
it was really not long ago. my confusion of past with present is a good sign that i've come too far only to see that its not nearly far enough....
in the end:
i see the girl on the escalator. the one with the sad eyes. the only thing this moment reveals is that its me.
and there is no such thing as a sadness when its only me. sometimes they are surrounded with people, but feel alone. but i have no one. and i'm still alone. should this be so obvious to me? i cry because i don't know any better. i should have listened to what was right. now i have no understanding.
i saw someone who didn't have as much as much as me and i felt fortunate. then i wondered if i was wrong. they probably had so much more and looked at me the same way. now i've grown cold and my bones are like ice.
when was the last time i felt like i cared? i can't even remember the last time i felt ...
you.
and watching you walk away, watching you leave down the stairs and only look back once when we both knew you should have stayed, watching the person who meant most to me leave without a goodbye....was like writing a song that you already know the words to...writing something you don't even believe in.
sincerely,
anonymous
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i love you
and other people love you too
and he loves you too
i guess.. idk.
but itll work out kay
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"oh no my heart is broken PITY ME NOW"
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