another twist in my heart
so i've been thinking alot about what has happened to me recently. especially when it comes to matters of the heart. its just so humorous sometimes that i dont even know which way to take it anymore. god really does have an odd sense of humor. the reason i say this is because of a story that my grandmother decided to tell me this weekend. the purpose was to let me know that i shouldnt be pushing for love, and that love will find me when its time.
she was telling me how when she was in college, she was being courted by a couple of men, one of them being my grandfather and the other being a japanese businessman. she told me how she ran into my grandfather while he was out on a date, and how she made sure that she made herself visible to him so that he knew she was there. eventually i guess my lolo got fed up with her having 2 men courting her and told her, who is it going to be, me or the other guy. obviously she picked him.
so as she is telling me how they decided to elope and get married, she starts looking at me kind of funny, at this time i was just laying on the bed while she was sitting up on the edge of the bed. she tells me how they had eloped and were married by a judge. she mentions the name of the judge and gives me this look that says "you know him right?"
i look back at her and in a surprised tone say "did you just say judge ingles? as in ambassador/minister jose ingles?"
she replied back with a yes, while just looking at me.
it was as if in that moment, 2 worlds came together in my mind. this man that married my grandparents, how many years ago, is the grandfather of the same girl that i fell for this last trip back in the philippines. i had never mentioned this girl to my lola, so you can only imagine how badly my mind started to laugh and think about her again. what is it about her that keeps coming back, everytime i think i am ready to start moving on, something always draws me back to her. i know i shouldnt dwell on what my lola told me but it was just so weird of how she told me that story and gave me that look that was supposed to tie past, present and future together. why is it that our lives are so intertwined but at the same time moving in 2 different directions? how i wish i could see what the future holds, not necessarily to know what happens between me and her but just so that i can be at ease in my mind that i will have a future with someone and that my biggest fear doesnt come to fruition.
she was telling me how when she was in college, she was being courted by a couple of men, one of them being my grandfather and the other being a japanese businessman. she told me how she ran into my grandfather while he was out on a date, and how she made sure that she made herself visible to him so that he knew she was there. eventually i guess my lolo got fed up with her having 2 men courting her and told her, who is it going to be, me or the other guy. obviously she picked him.
so as she is telling me how they decided to elope and get married, she starts looking at me kind of funny, at this time i was just laying on the bed while she was sitting up on the edge of the bed. she tells me how they had eloped and were married by a judge. she mentions the name of the judge and gives me this look that says "you know him right?"
i look back at her and in a surprised tone say "did you just say judge ingles? as in ambassador/minister jose ingles?"
she replied back with a yes, while just looking at me.
it was as if in that moment, 2 worlds came together in my mind. this man that married my grandparents, how many years ago, is the grandfather of the same girl that i fell for this last trip back in the philippines. i had never mentioned this girl to my lola, so you can only imagine how badly my mind started to laugh and think about her again. what is it about her that keeps coming back, everytime i think i am ready to start moving on, something always draws me back to her. i know i shouldnt dwell on what my lola told me but it was just so weird of how she told me that story and gave me that look that was supposed to tie past, present and future together. why is it that our lives are so intertwined but at the same time moving in 2 different directions? how i wish i could see what the future holds, not necessarily to know what happens between me and her but just so that i can be at ease in my mind that i will have a future with someone and that my biggest fear doesnt come to fruition.