saddened
for the past few days/week i've been getting a feeling of sadness creep up on me. been trying to figure out what it was and today i think i finally got it. i had told my mom that i wouldnt be able to come home for thanksgiving, and even possibly christmas because i was trying to not use my vacation time since i had so many trips in the beginning of 2006. she was fine with that and so was i.
but the other day my cousin had called me up and said "so is it true, i hear you arent coming home for the holiday?" and i said "yeah, with so much going on next year and not being able to fully carry over all my vacation time, i'm going to have to sacrifice coming home this season"
he said "thats understandable" and then paused "so you arent going to see isis(my goddaughter) this time around huh?" sadly i had to say, yeah and then remind him that i'm also not seeing my godson (his sister's son). i think thats when this feeling really started creeping.
my mom i had seen almost every weekend for the past 2 months, i had even seen my older brother who flies to SD a couple of times, i speak to my younger brother every few days just to check up on him and email or IM with my friends almost everyday, so those people i'm ok with. but then looking through some pictures i had today i realized who i was really missing....=(
Isis sleeping on me at auntie beryl's wedding
isis with her mom
Nico staring
Nico in pumpkin suit
The pictures are older but this is how i remember my godkids, when they were at these sizes. I know when i am finally able to see them they will be so much bigger and definitely talking more but i will always want them to be at the age where they would just fall asleep in my arms...
but the other day my cousin had called me up and said "so is it true, i hear you arent coming home for the holiday?" and i said "yeah, with so much going on next year and not being able to fully carry over all my vacation time, i'm going to have to sacrifice coming home this season"
he said "thats understandable" and then paused "so you arent going to see isis(my goddaughter) this time around huh?" sadly i had to say, yeah and then remind him that i'm also not seeing my godson (his sister's son). i think thats when this feeling really started creeping.
my mom i had seen almost every weekend for the past 2 months, i had even seen my older brother who flies to SD a couple of times, i speak to my younger brother every few days just to check up on him and email or IM with my friends almost everyday, so those people i'm ok with. but then looking through some pictures i had today i realized who i was really missing....=(
Isis sleeping on me at auntie beryl's wedding
isis with her mom
Nico staring
Nico in pumpkin suit
The pictures are older but this is how i remember my godkids, when they were at these sizes. I know when i am finally able to see them they will be so much bigger and definitely talking more but i will always want them to be at the age where they would just fall asleep in my arms...