Silent.
Hm, so the passed 2 weeks ive been different i guess. I havent been my normal, laughing, self. I guess its due to the fact that i have alot of shit on my mind. My mom has been biching at my continusly for a while now about how i do everything for myself and never think about others. I ahvent been in the mood yell back so i jus sit there and cry, then she says " Im siick of u and ur depression, go live with ur grandmother!". Oh, so.. im not suposed to cry after that?. Holy shit, she flips out cuz i want to fucking go out on a Friday nite, but nooooooooooo im think of only myself and whats good for me. Ugh, ive been so irritable lately. I hate it. Im giving every1 attitude, ignoring people, i wanna lock myself in my room and clean for a day. It releves stress. I cant wait till camping, i need to get away. I basically live a boring life. Weekdays i go to school and come home and stay home or go rollerblading, weekends i work mornings and then visit my cuzins. I need a change. I cant wait till next year, ill have more freedom (knock on wood). i feel like screaming FUCK YOU to ppl hoo irritate me. Id praly get shot tho...hm, so lets talk about Eric. hmm maybe not. I have no clu wtf is going on with him. I call him my half-b.f cuz it doesnt feel like were going out and we are still friends. Hm,,so yah..i really need to get all this shit off my chest. Im constanly getting head and stomach aches. It doesnt seem like alot thas going on, but i wish i had a camera to record what goes on. Hm, i thnik i wanna go clean my room. and scream a little bit. i really wanna go bike riding or rollerblading.. anyways. ill update later..
Peace,
MaRia.
Peace,
MaRia.