too much
It's too much for me. Seeing a friend hurt. Not just a friend, but someone who really truely means alot to me. It just full out sucks when guys do what they do to you. Though I have a boyfriend I really love I still carry the past. I still have problems with trust, truth, and honesty
towards me. As much as you see someone's pain from being hurt, you'll never fully understand the feeling until It happens to you. Not only do you feel weak and useless, you feel defeated, so so so defeated. How could something you put everything into just fall apart faster then it was put together? How can you give your all and get shit in return? What kills you the most is the fact that they lie. They say they lie because the truth will hurt, but what hurts worst is the fact that they lie to your face. They look you in your eyes, the same way as always, and lie. They turn against you and you have no idea why they did it. They lie in a sense when they say they will always be there, that they love you and nothing will change that. It hurts when you feel unworthy of something that holds a relationship together, you feel cheated and envy the people who get a second chance, because your second chance is long gone. It's so far away that you know there's nothing you can do and there's no way of getting it back. I just want Gina to know how much I love her and how much I will never know the full extent of her pain. It's hard to get through a break-up with a boyfriend, but it's even harder when your boyfriend becomes your best friend, someone you rely on and want in your life forever, and then one day they're gone.
towards me. As much as you see someone's pain from being hurt, you'll never fully understand the feeling until It happens to you. Not only do you feel weak and useless, you feel defeated, so so so defeated. How could something you put everything into just fall apart faster then it was put together? How can you give your all and get shit in return? What kills you the most is the fact that they lie. They say they lie because the truth will hurt, but what hurts worst is the fact that they lie to your face. They look you in your eyes, the same way as always, and lie. They turn against you and you have no idea why they did it. They lie in a sense when they say they will always be there, that they love you and nothing will change that. It hurts when you feel unworthy of something that holds a relationship together, you feel cheated and envy the people who get a second chance, because your second chance is long gone. It's so far away that you know there's nothing you can do and there's no way of getting it back. I just want Gina to know how much I love her and how much I will never know the full extent of her pain. It's hard to get through a break-up with a boyfriend, but it's even harder when your boyfriend becomes your best friend, someone you rely on and want in your life forever, and then one day they're gone.