"Let go of the past and hope for the future"
I sometimes question the average high school students way of like. Relationships are what bother me the most, i hate how people throw the word love around without recognizing the meaning of it. We expect so much out of life when we walk out of those green medal doors everyday at 2:11, and cry when things don't go as planned. We let people in our lives because we trust them, and we discard them when turst wears off and weighs us down. I let him in my life without knowing the consequences of what i was doing, and in the end nothing was worth it. Trying to change yourself just to please the ones you care about isn't worth it. I hate dwelling on things but this one really got under skin, i let him under my skin, and thats the last place i guy should be, under your skin. Everything is going to be different now, in more good ways then bad, believe me. I let him in and trusted him, ignored my friends and just kept things going, when really i should of stopped 3 months ago. I will admit a few tears have been shed, but not to the point where crying is just going to be a pitiful habit. I look at this as inspiration, and i look at him as someone who changed my perception and brought me closer to my friends and myself. He didn' realize that every conservation was put on a mental recording, and played for my friends to hear and tell me " he's not worth it, you can do soo much better." I don't really know about the second part, but the first part had so much honesty in it, that it alone made me wonder what i was doing, and how i got myself in such a shitty mess. I really thought that things were going to go places between me and him, considering we've been talking sense August, but things change and so do people. In a way I guess we both changed, and in doing so we changed eachother. Saying goodbye to him and watch him walk in the opposite direction was hard, but not as hard as petraying my feelings and letting him keep hurting me. He's in my past now, and that's where he's gonna stay. "Let go of the past and hope for the future"