whatta gift two posts in one week that actually have some substance
so this post is cause i am slightly bothered and just need to vent a little. i love my job getting to talk to people and what not and try and help them through their bad situations they have gotten themselves into. most people who come to detox are dual diagnosed. (for those who dont know what that is... it means they have mental illness diagnosis on top of a drug dependcy diagnosis of some sort). anyways this one girl who we have there is 25. and i can so easily see one of my friends being her or me being her in ways. it just bothers me. she is a cutter, ex-bulmic at the moment and a herion user... and also a new mom of 2 months. her baby was given to her fiancee's partents for temp custody until she cleans up. and the first day she came in she was sucha mess. today she looked good. the difference is dramatic. but we had to extend her protocals cause she used so much... and give her a libruim taper on top of it that we would normally just give to alcoholics. herion/opiate abusers get libruim for the shakes and to help them sleep at night but its only for the first 3 days... and then they dont get it. but she is so bad that not only did she get a normal alcholics libruim taper but she then got an extended one on top of her... meth taper and she got her chloral hydrate extended too... (helps you sleep). i think what bothers me so badly is she cuts and she has an eating disorder... melissa cut and had an eating disorder and died when i was 16 and she was 15. it impacted me so badly. its like my soft spot for these people if they have that i feel compelled to try my best to help... i actually start to tear up when talking to them. i gave her 2 rubber bands and twisted them and told her to out them around her wrist and snap them on her wrist when she feels like cutting. i know it sounds stupid but it helps. i also told her to come to the desk whenevr she felt like she had to cut and i would give her a basin bucket of ice... i know that sounds weird too but it really helps. what you do is make them hold their hands in the ice it gives them pain... and stimulates the craving to cut.... i gave her a bunch of other little tips and what not... and to my credit dr peter just so happened to be there and before he left he pulled me to the side and said u better go get your therapy licence quick. i know im good, but its nice to still here from him... but i think im good to a level of bad. cause i feel so deeply for this girl. just so young to have so many problems... and we talk at length... i hope she makes it. as for other things i have to vent for there is this guy who was on detox. and he was in the hospital for over 3 months combined. he left for like 2 weeks and came right back. anyways almost both times he was with us both times. he was an iv herion user who had diabeties got extremely sick and used between his toes so people wouldnt see the needle tracks. anyways he had toes apputated and what not because he developed sepsis and a mess load of other problems... anyways he was clean for about 95 days... and he was discharged on friday without rehab this time cause his medical problems were too much for a rehab to handle... and the last place wouldnt take him back again cause he was transferred back to the hospital so wuickly. anyways again last night he went to the er... he had a bottle of xanex and took a bunch of pills and yea... lets just say he fell off the wagon. it upset me cause he stood a chance but in the last 2 and half weeks i have been suspicouis of him cause he had an attitude change and what not so i was kinda avoiding him. i think he may have been using all the way back then. anyways he was sent home from the er and put in the cab by security we flushed the pills and didnt call the police because we didnt want him to get into trouble. but it is honestly someone i know will never get cleaned. if u cant hit ur rock bottom when u have almost lossed a whole foot and multiple toes from both feet and od'ed and almost died and had all the problems this man has had... you obvisouly will probably die before u hit that bottom. *shakes head* the moment he wasnt being babysitted... anyways yea now im done venting bye for noe yall