yea...
so my week last week wasnt so bad i guess. i have been looking into a daycare for aj. i think i am gonna be sending him to one come september or maybe even sooner then that. i think it will do him some good and maybe save me some money also in the long run.
anyways on saturday i went out with scottie and toni and ricky and we went to go see war of the worlds. it was good and bad... really its one of the only movies i have ever said that about the end to the theme of the movie was good but got lost throughout the movie as a whole. meaning of they hadnt shown the clip of the begginning of the movie again i dont think most people would have gotten the end at all. some things were serouisly stupid and some u could tell they were trying to please the crowds who were gonna go see the movie. and some parts were very funny and some seemed like they were just trying way too hard... all n all i wouldnt say it was a waste opf money though but i wouldnt buy the dvd.
on sunday i got dressed and what not and picked up aj from steve's grandma got in a arguement with steve, which blew over pretty quickly as per ussual. when i was leaving grandmas steve was pulling up on break from lunch and came down to my house with the baby and filled up hois sand box and played on the jungle gym with him. which was cute and nice cause aj thinks steve is just the best thing ever. when steve left he got upset. *shurgs* i would too though if he was my dad. then we went to the fair spent some money aj had a blast. we got kfc and went back to grandmas cause the baby didnt say by to marie and i promissed him i would bring him back. meanwhile marie was calling me anyways to come over for dinner so it worked out well accept for the fact we got kfc... lol
yesterday the 4th of july. i got up early cause steve said to be at grandmas in the morning and he didnt show up till 2 in the afternoon so i was annoyed since he said to be there early. then he wanted to go to pa to get freworks and i told him he wasnt going. lol he saod why and i said because he didnt come until 2 and last yr he took like 5 hours to come back and that wasnt gpnna happen this yr. maybe if he had come earlier in the day. so he stayed and played with the baby which was good else i might have killed him. i helped grandma cook and get the barbecue ready. went swimming with olvia paige rob and heidi for like 3 hours... and then went home to get ready for ricky's. when i went to ricky's toni and ricky were the only ones there and they said oh meghan we were trying to reach scott is bringing nancy. which with me is an annoyance. nancy can be okay but in general annoy me. she's like a little kid who always needs attention or something so she's always acting stupid and doing dmb things. when she isnt being that way im okay with her though. i dont see what scott sees in her. but maybe with him she isnt always acting so fake she just always seems to pto be putting on show. anyways we went and watched fireworks by the lake came back to ricky;s i stayed maybe 30 mins more and then left and went back to grandmas. steve was setting off fireworks and me and the baby were watching. we played with sparklers and what not and aj was grinning ear to ear. it helps me to remember why i thought he was sucha great guy... but doesnt take away his faults.
today i was sick in the morning and so was aj. aj threw up 3 times and i did once. i think the heat was what was bothering me but later in the day i was still having stimach problems and even now. so maybe i will call in sick again and go to the doctors cause i honestly felt like crap and still do. i didnt do anything today but cook dinner really and clean... i feel like i was so lazy today. and finally fully understand office spaces line when peter says "i did nothing today and it was everything i thought it could be."
tomorow i will call steve prolly and ask him if he wants to go out with me and aj on saturday for dinner or maybe alone if he rathered. i figged i should talk to him get some things of my chest and maybe things will be resolved. i feel horrible for not supporting him as of late and not really being there for him. but my anger it just makes it all so ugly. i think it would be good for both of us to vent to the other. and maybe we could work out some better arrangment with the restrictions i place on him with aj and as of late with our freindship. *shurgs* thats all for now even though i could say more i will shutup now and just post later in the week love yall *megs*