(no subject)
have you ever felt that you have something you shouldn't?
that you're life is some sort of dream that shouldn't be?
i feel like shit.
i treat those i love like shit.
maybe it explains why i don't feel good physically, something about the relationship between emotional stress and physical sickness.whatever.
i've wanted to start writing my poems again.
i'm just afraid it'll turn into what it did last time.
i'm just afraid.
afraid.
afraid of what?
what the FUCK AM I SO SCARED OF?
change?
loss?
the future?
why can't i fucking just sit around not feeling.
I wish humans had the ability to turn of worry.
I'm worried sick.
i'm sick of worry-ing.
i'm sick......
that you're life is some sort of dream that shouldn't be?
i feel like shit.
i treat those i love like shit.
maybe it explains why i don't feel good physically, something about the relationship between emotional stress and physical sickness.whatever.
i've wanted to start writing my poems again.
i'm just afraid it'll turn into what it did last time.
i'm just afraid.
afraid.
afraid of what?
what the FUCK AM I SO SCARED OF?
change?
loss?
the future?
why can't i fucking just sit around not feeling.
I wish humans had the ability to turn of worry.
I'm worried sick.
i'm sick of worry-ing.
i'm sick......