hmmm what a long time
it's been a while since i last wrote in here...
i guess they changed the place up a little bit.
a lot of things have changed since my last entry,
ben and i broke up... he no longer wants to speak to me... infact i'm pretty sure he hates my guts permanently.
it makes me sad. i will always love ben. nothing will ever change that
he will always be the one guy who understood me no matter what insanity i commenced.
who was there for me and supported me in every decision.
i miss him. he'll always have a huge chunk of my heart.
i'm with this new guy (well not really new, we've been together for about 4 months)
and he's really great, and sweet and loves me.
but he's different from me. very different from me.
and he doesn't get me all the time... so that makes it a little difficult.
but i love him, and he loves me and we try to work things out.
i'm selfish and he knows it. he deals with it.
i have issues with our relationship... mainly other girls.
i'm a jealous lover. i'll never deny that.
pretty much ever girl friend he has wants to sleep with him...
it's annoying to say the least.
and there's this one in orlando that i HATE with a passion.
i don't even know her but i hate her.
she calls him all the time.
she tells him that she loves him.
GRRR! what a bitch. i swear if i ever meet her i'll smack a hoe.
it wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the fact he has a crush on her in high school.
not a happy thing for me.
i had a dream last night she kept telling him she loved him
and even though it bothered me he wouldn't do anything
so i broke up with him.
i hope it doesn't come to that.
i hate girls.
hey jealousy has been stuck in my head for ages... that's a great song.
i won't if anyone remembers me...
i guess they changed the place up a little bit.
a lot of things have changed since my last entry,
ben and i broke up... he no longer wants to speak to me... infact i'm pretty sure he hates my guts permanently.
it makes me sad. i will always love ben. nothing will ever change that
he will always be the one guy who understood me no matter what insanity i commenced.
who was there for me and supported me in every decision.
i miss him. he'll always have a huge chunk of my heart.
i'm with this new guy (well not really new, we've been together for about 4 months)
and he's really great, and sweet and loves me.
but he's different from me. very different from me.
and he doesn't get me all the time... so that makes it a little difficult.
but i love him, and he loves me and we try to work things out.
i'm selfish and he knows it. he deals with it.
i have issues with our relationship... mainly other girls.
i'm a jealous lover. i'll never deny that.
pretty much ever girl friend he has wants to sleep with him...
it's annoying to say the least.
and there's this one in orlando that i HATE with a passion.
i don't even know her but i hate her.
she calls him all the time.
she tells him that she loves him.
GRRR! what a bitch. i swear if i ever meet her i'll smack a hoe.
it wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the fact he has a crush on her in high school.
not a happy thing for me.
i had a dream last night she kept telling him she loved him
and even though it bothered me he wouldn't do anything
so i broke up with him.
i hope it doesn't come to that.
i hate girls.
hey jealousy has been stuck in my head for ages... that's a great song.
i won't if anyone remembers me...