R.I.P Papa <3

Oct 29, 2009 22:59

This morning at 5:25am my Papa (grandpa) died. This was my first death experience of my immediate family..
20 Mintues before that my Dad left to go to the hospital, he woke me up to let me know he was going and gave me a kiss. My brother jake is at his home in laurier and erick slept at his friends that night so he had a ride to school, so i was home alone. And since my dad just woke me up not too long ago I was still awake when my mom called me crying hysterically and I knew right then my papa died. My Dad missed it by minutes. And there i was home alone at 5:25am and not a clue what to do i just cryed and cryed and cyred until i cryed myself back to sleep. I got about a 3 hour sleep last night since my cellphone was going off every second lol... ps. i have the most amazing friends in the world thank you all so much for everthing it means SO much to me and my family !!!!!!!

My mom and aunt slept in the room next to my papa while my granny slept in a pull out chair beside him. At around 4:50am my aunt woke up and decided to go see my papa and check his breathing she said it sounded ok so she knew he wasn't going to pass away before 5. She lay her head on his bed and fell back asleep. 15 min. later she woke up and noticed his breathing was getting worse so she woke up my mom next store and told her she better come in and they woke up my granny. They lifted her in the hospital bed next to my papa and she lay beside him and at that moment my aunt told me he took his last breath and soo peacefully he died. Seconds later nurses ran in checking his pulse to reasure he had passed away. The nurses then closed the blinds and the door to give them their privacy with my papa. Not too long after they all went back to my grannys and began making plans for the funeral. It's soooo hard to beleive this is real and that i will never see my papa agian. It hurts like hell to see my mom and granny soo sad. It'll take a while for us all to adjust, i miss you so much papa and i am doing all that i can to take care of granny, she loves you so much!! Granny really wants me to speak at your funeral, as well i wrote you something i will also be reading at your funeral..i'm not looking forward to it at all, i'm scared i'll cry too much and not get it done or people wont be able to hear me. I wish you were never put into the hospital, i know how much you were looking forward to coming home. Me and Granny were laughing at your silly ways today, we found momey hidden in your sock and in a book and in a cupboad lol you never liked to spend your money! But now granny is going to buy a beautiful dress to wear to your funeral, shes going to look gorgeous! Anyway, you are my first ever angel in heaven. Look down on me and the rest of us, especially granny, i worry about her being all alone now..so make her feel your presence. Goodnight Papa, I can't wait to see your face one last time and kiss you one last time. You were the best Grandpa ever and I will never forget the times i've shared with you. I love you and miss you SO much !!!!!!!!!!! Rest In Peace Papa, the pain is all gone now!
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