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my birthday weekend = those feelings that make me realize that now that im 17 i have only one more year till i can just leave here and forget eveyone and everything
here is what i got for my birthday (so far, i mean i have the rest of the day)-
- a check in the mail from my dad- i know totaly sentimental.... that was + 125 depression points
- a friend ditching you for the night and completely forgeting about you... that was a + 100 depression points
- a days worth of yelling, stress, and homework.... + 57 depression points
- "best friend" not giving a rats ass about your birthday..... + 100 depression points
- a paper crown that matt made for me last night when i came into work and ordered my depression shake (bananana and cooke dough)... they know me well at work -10 depression points
- a hug from jeff @10 pm after i called him and told him i needed a friend by me - 20 depression points
- a visit from kristine @ 10:30pm after she called me back and realized i was really upset - 25 points dp
- my grandma and granpa calling me this morning and singing happy birthday to me and telling me how much they love me and how much i mean to them -85 depression points
- a call from travis saying happy birthday -15 d. points
- hearing that theres a rumor going around that im a coke addict (now thats funny) + 89 what the fuck points
when it comes to your birthday, you realize only specific people care about you... your grandparents and people who honestly worried about you.... best friends..., nope they realize that its your job to go out of your way on thier birthdays to make sure theydont feel like you do...
i dont like the saying happy birthady... its fake