Hmm...Tuesdays with Morrie much?
"If you hold back on the emotions-- if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them-- you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I can recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.' "
In some ways Tuesdays with Morrie is one of the best books I've ever read. I mean, the philosophies in it, and the way that the words can just stop and make you think are amazing. Who would've known, eh? Oh well...you should definately read this book. Just don't read it for school, that makes it worse, in a way...kind of.
Anyway, school's going alright. I'm not yet overwhelmed, but I know I will be soon...very soon. I can feel it creaping in...as soon as all the teachers get together and decide to give a bunch of projects on one day, then I know I'll be screwed. And don't pretend like they don't collaborate to make things harder for us, because...they do!
And I was thinking today...maybe being second best isn't the worst thing for once. I mean, it's never the worst thing, but maybe it's a good thing this time. If I'm only second best in this, that means I don't mean as much...maybe I won't hurt as much when the time comes...
Oh well, I've got essay's to write. It's Hammer Time.