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My life is boring. I am boring. I wake up go to work, come home, take out all my frustration on nathan becuase i cant take it out at work. i fall asleep at 9pm. I have no money. I dont eat much. my fridge is empty. I don't have money to do fun things. I cant go snowboarding this season. (whcih if anyone knows me, really bums me out) I don't know what im doing with my life. I could go to school to be an OT but then what if i dont wanna do that. ill have 50 thousand dollars in loans to pay back. my job is sucking the life out of me. OH MY GOD. i need a change. i need a new job. i need a new life (with nathan in it) I miss my best friend. I feel like i dont have a best friend here in richmond. I have good friends, but not a best friend. but no even that... my phone never rings. when it does i never wanna pick it up. or im asleep. my mom doesnt want me to go back to school, which sucks that she isnt supportive. so what do i do? i called her all excited to tell her what i wanted to do, or thought what i wanted to do, when she got back from south africa. the conversation lasted 4 seconds, i got mad when she said she doesnt know if thats a good idea, i yelled and hung up the phone. my hair sucks. it wont grow anymore. its boring. i miss my computer. I need a holiday. that lasts forever. my boobs are bothering me. nothing fits right cause they are too big. I want them to be smaller. but who has money to do that? you can't breast feed when you have the surgery.
i need something new. . . now.
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i need something new. . . now.
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