i need someone to talk to
you know what really sucks? i've always considered myself a really good friend. i try and be there when my friends need me. i really need someone to talk to right now, and people i don't even know are more willing to listen then my "friends" are. i realize that people have lives while i have nothing, but i can't go 5 minutes without crying and i can't talk to jon about these things. he tries so hard to keep me happy and if he knew just how depressed i am right now, he'd freak out. i just... i can't describe it.