cracking up. . . . . . . . . . .
wow...i just realised im going crazy. i try to act like more my normal self but im just a hand gun waiting for the trigger to be pulled. i also know what it is. i have girl problems. ive never really had a g/f and ive never even kissed a girl. ive only been to one dance, i dont know how to dance, and im so fuckin shy its sad not only that but i have problems at home. i have daily fights w/ my parents about stupid shit. not just fights but fist fights. me and my dad got in a fight so bad that the cops came. of course he would deny hitting me even though i had a black eye, busted lip and chipped tooth, and the cops believed him. he said i fell. then i go to school and put up w/ faggots all around me who try to be all cool and stand up to me n shit. i also realised a lot of my friends are fake. like they could careless about me. i have to put up w/ school, home, and not being able to be in love or sum shit. im fuckin tired of life i actually look forward to death. slits on my wrist are only beggin