Life is so meaningless. There is nothing worth a smile.
I miss him. He doesnt even get it. I miss him so much. What am I supposed to do. Hes not here. I hate vacations. Ima cry, I miss him so much. WTH. Whyd hes parents have to ttake him away. Now i have no one to talk to. damn it. I talk to him about everything. I miss him. So fucking much.
It doesnt seem like everything is okay though. It seems like me and hes relationship just kinda idk rigth now. Like that were not okay. I donnu. Mabye its just me being lame. But it just seems like Theres something wrong;.
Its weird how you could like some one so much. But you dont love them. I donnu. Im kinda liking him alot. but love. hm. In my opinion love destroys people. If you say it too early. The relationship will just fall apart. I know from past experinces. Some times I find my self almost telling him i love him.;. But i stop in the middle of the sentence. The scary thing is that i kinda do love him. but i know I cant/. I dont want this relationship to get ruined,. I think love is just a mistake for really hardcore lust.
Its crazy though. my opinion. To many kids say I love you. When they shouldnt. They think there in love. But reality there not. You cant fall in love with some one in a short period of time/. Well you can but its not very likely.
Urghh I D K. This subject is so comfusing. I dont know what to think. Eh well I got a new book today/. Mabye i can read it instead of talking to him. aha Damn. This is gay. Well the book is called/ CRANK. Its about this girl that gets addicted to speed. It seems pretty good.
Yep. Well im bored. Im out.
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