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I hate the way a hospital smells. It is the most disgusting smell, it suffocates you the second you come in. When Casey and I got to Laurie's room Jesy came flying out and hugged me. The innocence in her eyes kills me. And of course when I go in my sister is all talkative and smiles. But when Casey and Jesy leave, I watch my sister cry for only the fourth time in my life. She took my arm and held it so tightly as she spoke. Right now I dont know how I didnt break down when she spoke. And the second Casey and Jesy came back, she dried her eyes and let Jesy crawl into bed with her and watch cartoons. When i was at the hospital, everything felt like it was going to be okay. And now that i am home... those evil thoughts are back...