Self-sabotage

[xdarknessfairyx]

I think i am becoming manic depressive. Out of nowhere tonight i have this surge of insecurity and fear. I guess its not completely unfounded. I have been hurt so badly in the past i find it hard to believe this one is for real. Im just expecting him to wake up one morning and leave, just like the last 5.

or maybe IM feeling doubt.

This night calls for a carton of ice cream and a chick flick, but i dont feel like watching anything, so i just plan to eat everything in the house.

I guess ill know either way in 6 days....