Unimpressed by material excess/Love is free love me say hell yes
if you read this, i'm sorry.
i'm sorry for doubting you and disregarding you and pretending that there wasn't anything between us when there was. you deserved to be treated better than that. i was looking for reasons to get rid of you when i realize now just how much i could use you. when no one else had the time to listen to me, you did. you gave me hours upon hours of your time so that i could have an outlet for my frustrations and my issues.
i hope you're happy with whatever you're doing now and whoever you're around. i hope they know how good of a person you are and how much shit you've taken for choosing to be far braver than i and just being yourself. i wish i could say i didn't do away with you out of fear of how my friends would take it, but i can't. i did sink that low and i regret it. i wish i hadn't now. now i see that it doesn't matter. what matters is me and you and what my heart and mind think.
i doubt you'll allow me to try and rekindle our friendship, and i don't blame you. i don't mean to be a heart breaker, just know that. i didn't mean to toy with you. i knew all along you thought we'd be something but i pretended that i didn't so i could use that as another reason to get out before it was too late.
i don't think i know anything. i don't know if i think anything.
Where I go I just don't know
I got to gotta gotta take it slow
When I find my peace of mind
I'm gonna give you some of my good time
Oh so polite indeed
Well I've got everything I need
Oh make my days a breeze
And take away my self-destruction
It's bitter baby and its very sweet
I'm on a roller coaster
But I'm on my feet
Take me to the river lay me on your shore
I'll be comin' back baby
I'll be comin' back for more
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Soul to Squeeze
i'm sorry for doubting you and disregarding you and pretending that there wasn't anything between us when there was. you deserved to be treated better than that. i was looking for reasons to get rid of you when i realize now just how much i could use you. when no one else had the time to listen to me, you did. you gave me hours upon hours of your time so that i could have an outlet for my frustrations and my issues.
i hope you're happy with whatever you're doing now and whoever you're around. i hope they know how good of a person you are and how much shit you've taken for choosing to be far braver than i and just being yourself. i wish i could say i didn't do away with you out of fear of how my friends would take it, but i can't. i did sink that low and i regret it. i wish i hadn't now. now i see that it doesn't matter. what matters is me and you and what my heart and mind think.
i doubt you'll allow me to try and rekindle our friendship, and i don't blame you. i don't mean to be a heart breaker, just know that. i didn't mean to toy with you. i knew all along you thought we'd be something but i pretended that i didn't so i could use that as another reason to get out before it was too late.
i don't think i know anything. i don't know if i think anything.
Where I go I just don't know
I got to gotta gotta take it slow
When I find my peace of mind
I'm gonna give you some of my good time
Oh so polite indeed
Well I've got everything I need
Oh make my days a breeze
And take away my self-destruction
It's bitter baby and its very sweet
I'm on a roller coaster
But I'm on my feet
Take me to the river lay me on your shore
I'll be comin' back baby
I'll be comin' back for more
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Soul to Squeeze