thinking..
so yeah... Im not exactly sure why, but i have been doin a lot of thinking. I kinda doubt that anyone cares or even reads this... but.. ya know im tired of being so BLAH.. i mean.. im not blah.. im just tired of feeling that way. im tired of feeling thrown into a society that is more obsessed with themselves then anything else. I mean everyone should be concerned with themselves.. but for the right reasons. You should want to do something because YOU want to do it. Not because its the "in" thing. The Most IMPortant thing in your life should be as follows.. in this order... Family/Religion, School, Friends/yourself, Vanity things. So... in my thinking.. im realizing that i dont like where i was.. and im gonna try my best to change. But i know thats hard to do. Im to the point where im just starting to not care. People can like me or not.. im so above drama right now its not even funny. Im not gonna worry about guys right now like i did before.. well not "guys" but.. my love life situation. If it happens nice.. but if not im not gonna cry over it. Im tired for putting forth the effort for someone.. so if they come around when they find the time so be it. I'll take the time and treat it like its special. but im not gonna get upset if it doesnt happen. MY senior year is suppose to be filled with happy memories... but so far... all i can think of is crying... fighting.. and backstabbing.. i am soooo very dissapointed... in everything.. im very pissed that people have let our senior year get so shitty. i dont blame individual people, but i think we should all out forth the effort to make the rest of it awesome.. and drug free.. and death free.. and.. abuse free. I think we need to go mini golfing and roasting marshmallows.. i think we need to tag every car in the parking lot saying class of 06 rocks! i think we need to stay out on the beach till the sun rises. I think we need to drive to alabama just for the hell of it, and steal roadsigns along the way. Theres so much we could be doing right now that doesnt involve talking about each other and partying... We shouldnt feel sorry for ourselves...
on a side note.. We are still going to Tenn. for our 2006 Senior Trip. and the new plan is.. for all whose interested.. we are renting a condo for 200 bucks a night.. i already have one... but we are gonna rent one for the dudes.. and then i have a boat and a jet ski.. and we are gonna rent a pontoon boat for like 100 a day.
why not make it fun yall??
im just exhausted
i love you guys... you know i do..
on a side note.. We are still going to Tenn. for our 2006 Senior Trip. and the new plan is.. for all whose interested.. we are renting a condo for 200 bucks a night.. i already have one... but we are gonna rent one for the dudes.. and then i have a boat and a jet ski.. and we are gonna rent a pontoon boat for like 100 a day.
why not make it fun yall??
im just exhausted
i love you guys... you know i do..