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I'm Sorry.
To be honest, I just... forgot. Lost interest in posting. I can only justt begin to imagine what you (and you know who you are) think of me...
I haven't stoped writing. If you check HPFF... I still update.
I HATE when author's do this... disapear, only to come back months later, with a half-assed apology. So believe me... I KNOW how angry at me you are. I never joined you-fiction.... but I have noticed that Lee came back. And she had a reason... I don't.
I understand... and I hate myself for it.
I have grown alot... just reading back on the entries below make me cringe... and that was only a few months ago...
My RPG... well, it didn't go so well. We only got three/four real members... it didn't take off. I think I lost a really good friend, too.
I was surprised when Fire-Blossom disapeared... I think I know why, but I dont want to say it here. After becoming so... getting so into the culture there, it's another punch to the stomach. I hope you won't be to angry to explain. I would love to... well, I wanna say help. I want to help.
I joined another RPG... I meet... more great people. Let's all hope I don't let them down. But then again, I vow not too. I can't. I should have done that before, but whats done is done.
It's hard to beleive a year has gone by... since I found HPFF, which lead me to Blossom... I felt like I fit in... like I was apart of something. Bigger then myself. I'll never forget that. Thank you. Thank you so much.
You don't know how much you all mean to me... and we weren't even that close! I bet if I didnt screw it up... we would have been much closer.
I hope that in one day you can forgive me for leaving... but knowing you, you won't really care. And all I can say to that is... good for you. As long as you know I am sorry... as much as I hope you read this... just know that.
-Jen
PS- I will update my journal now ALOT more often... promise.
PPS- I ask my other friends not to reply to this... this is just for those people- once again, you know who you are- who I've undoubtly angered... pissed off... I know I would be. If you don't want to comment, I would love it if you emailed me... aquagirl799@netscape.net ... and then you can vent-without-holding-back.
PPS- I am going to finish the table... I will.
To be honest, I just... forgot. Lost interest in posting. I can only justt begin to imagine what you (and you know who you are) think of me...
I haven't stoped writing. If you check HPFF... I still update.
I HATE when author's do this... disapear, only to come back months later, with a half-assed apology. So believe me... I KNOW how angry at me you are. I never joined you-fiction.... but I have noticed that Lee came back. And she had a reason... I don't.
I understand... and I hate myself for it.
I have grown alot... just reading back on the entries below make me cringe... and that was only a few months ago...
My RPG... well, it didn't go so well. We only got three/four real members... it didn't take off. I think I lost a really good friend, too.
I was surprised when Fire-Blossom disapeared... I think I know why, but I dont want to say it here. After becoming so... getting so into the culture there, it's another punch to the stomach. I hope you won't be to angry to explain. I would love to... well, I wanna say help. I want to help.
I joined another RPG... I meet... more great people. Let's all hope I don't let them down. But then again, I vow not too. I can't. I should have done that before, but whats done is done.
It's hard to beleive a year has gone by... since I found HPFF, which lead me to Blossom... I felt like I fit in... like I was apart of something. Bigger then myself. I'll never forget that. Thank you. Thank you so much.
You don't know how much you all mean to me... and we weren't even that close! I bet if I didnt screw it up... we would have been much closer.
I hope that in one day you can forgive me for leaving... but knowing you, you won't really care. And all I can say to that is... good for you. As long as you know I am sorry... as much as I hope you read this... just know that.
-Jen
PS- I will update my journal now ALOT more often... promise.
PPS- I ask my other friends not to reply to this... this is just for those people- once again, you know who you are- who I've undoubtly angered... pissed off... I know I would be. If you don't want to comment, I would love it if you emailed me... aquagirl799@netscape.net ... and then you can vent-without-holding-back.
PPS- I am going to finish the table... I will.