im going crazy on the inside
so i hate this. i hate all of this.
i miss his;; everything.
i miss what we used to be.
i sit here wondering why i did this?
why i decided to just give it all up.
and i keep telling myself... well if he loves me
then he is feeling the same. if he wanted me wouldnt he be trying?
i would give anything to have him come to me
and say that we can work this out;; that he realzed how much i meant to him.
but for some reason i really dont see that happening.
and as much as i want that to happen.
i have a feeling that it just wont.
i really didnt want to give up... but im at a loss on what to do.
i cant hang on like that anymore ... not knowing that what happened might happen again.
im hurting ... but in the end ...is this really for the best???
god i dont fucking know anymore.