I CAN'T SEEM TO FALL ALSEEP...
So instead I'm going to post my first REAL livejournal entry in about... 6 months! LOL. wowwie.
Sooooo. School has been going fucking horrible haha. Calculus has fucked me in the ass, and i surrendered almost immediately to its mighty member. Astronomy is just like stupid Chem. It has a facade of complete simplicity and easiness, but when the test rolls around-- I'm lost. For no explainable reason, the tests just cover a lot more than what the teacher covers in class.
Psychology is OK, but the lectures are just pretty boring. All classes should be an hour. There's no reason for it to go any longer, esPECIALLY when its just a man with a microphone talking. non stop. And english is just... really dumb. The essays we have to write are just packed to the brim with bullshit and nonsense. The first was about photography, and some weird ambiguous prompt about the assumptions we make about it, and our next essay is about the THEORY of facts and fiction. What, pray tell, does that EVEN MEAN? So i have just had it with that class.
On a lighter note, I am super fucking stoked to move to San Francisco. I realize that I always make excuses for why I lack motivation, and why I do so poorly in school and in life in general. At first i believe its simply because my room is messy, and I'm disorganized. So i clean my room up, buy a new backpack / desk / table / alarm clock etc. in order to persuade myself that THAT was the problem, and now its completely fixed. Then i moved on to other reasons, that I don't get enough sleep, or I sleep at strange hours, or that i don't plan my schedule well... anything I can think of, really, so that I don't have the face the plain and simple truth that I am just fucking lazy. Anyway, the point I'm trying to reach is that my new excuse is that the entire city of San Diego is to blame for my lackluster performance in school, so I'm going to move to SF and see if this is in fact the magical cure to all my problems. Which it better fucking be.
SO in order to prepare for this I have to follow a few rules, and do a couple things.
#1. SAVE MY PENNIES. My mom took my debit card away from me so that I can't spend ANY more of my FAFSA earnings. Thank god.
#2. GET A JOB. I'm going to apply for work study (finally) tomorrow, so that I can get some money, in the short time I have left, to save.
#3. FIND A GOOD HOUSE/APARTMENT/BASEMENT/ALLEY/KNOLL/CHIMNEY. Although this is more Darnell's territory. And to go along with this, I (still meaning Danielle) need(s) to find one or two suitable room mates. Preferably a cute homosexual woman, 18 to 25, or a nice, non-beer guzzling, non-jockesque, sexually curious (lol) or neutral man in the same age range.
#4. DO GOOD IN SCHOOL. Just an hour ago i finished reading a couple modules in my psychology book! And I'm ging to class to(day)morrow and I believe everything is going to be ffiiiiiine. I just have to get prepared and go in full throttle after this next wave of tests, and have a fresh start on the new chapters in all my classes.
#5. ATTEMPT TO FIGURE OUT WTF I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE. I have many thoughts about what I would life to do, but I'm not all that sure what would suit me. I know I love art, I love doing art. lookin' at art. being a part of art. And if i could somehow make MONEY doin' art that would be WONDERFUL. Otherwise I'm going to have to become an astrophysicist. Which I'm not entirely against, I'm just not AS passionate about it. And i want to make some god damn movies. Which is also artistic. So who knows, we'll make some hit drama shows (92120) and I'll create some bangin' photography, and do illustrations or be a graphic designer AND THEN ME AND DARNELL WILL GO BACK TO OUR HIGH SCHOOL REUNION AND EVERYONE WILL BE LIKE OMG IS ANDY AND DARNELL (Darnell will be Danielle's stage name) and they will SHOWER US WITH FLOWERS AS WE STEP OUT OF OUR PRIVATE JET.
So in conclusion, San Diego can suck my balls, and San Francisco can make passionate love to me.
Sorry to unload a lot of shit all at once. lol.