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So last week i sat in the grimmy, woodden seat of my schools pathetic auditorium.
It was an assembly. An assembly for seniors only. "Prom with no Regrets!!" Some how the only thing i understood was do all the things you want to do, like drugs, alcohol, and especially sex. Its prom night, what do you care?
But, I'm not going to prom. Im not going to any prom. IS that prom with no regrets? would i regret it later? Yes. NO. This prom is nothing special. No prom for me is special. Sure i would love to see the beautiful sparkling chandelier at the expensive hotel downtown. But pay a hundred dollars, (times two for my date) to see pretty light, nasty music, grinding groins, but no one special to share it with. The people their are not special. I dont really know a good protion of them. Of course plenty of them know that sergio kid, with the snake bites, crazy hair, nice eyes, but i dont know them, they dont know me.
My old school, more people i know might actually be worth it, but who would take me? would they want to take me? yeah they do, but they all have dates. Third wheels are just heavy, rubbery, and round.
Even older school. Only a miniscule Crowd who remember me, who want, me who still like me?
My other half's velcro is attached to a star, a shinny star.
The whole thing is more depressing than I actually feel about it. I've had three years learning. Leanring how to deal, man.
You guys all seem stressed. Alone. Miserable.
Me too.
I miss you guys.
PS. Ali I think im going to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. But i wont know for sure till my last acceptance letters arrive in April. You staying in Michigan? Tell your mom and grams i said hi.
It was an assembly. An assembly for seniors only. "Prom with no Regrets!!" Some how the only thing i understood was do all the things you want to do, like drugs, alcohol, and especially sex. Its prom night, what do you care?
But, I'm not going to prom. Im not going to any prom. IS that prom with no regrets? would i regret it later? Yes. NO. This prom is nothing special. No prom for me is special. Sure i would love to see the beautiful sparkling chandelier at the expensive hotel downtown. But pay a hundred dollars, (times two for my date) to see pretty light, nasty music, grinding groins, but no one special to share it with. The people their are not special. I dont really know a good protion of them. Of course plenty of them know that sergio kid, with the snake bites, crazy hair, nice eyes, but i dont know them, they dont know me.
My old school, more people i know might actually be worth it, but who would take me? would they want to take me? yeah they do, but they all have dates. Third wheels are just heavy, rubbery, and round.
Even older school. Only a miniscule Crowd who remember me, who want, me who still like me?
My other half's velcro is attached to a star, a shinny star.
The whole thing is more depressing than I actually feel about it. I've had three years learning. Leanring how to deal, man.
You guys all seem stressed. Alone. Miserable.
Me too.
I miss you guys.
PS. Ali I think im going to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. But i wont know for sure till my last acceptance letters arrive in April. You staying in Michigan? Tell your mom and grams i said hi.