this is life this is me i guess
I miss jayson and i hate that hes always going to be gone i hate being lonely. i love him and he wants to marry me and i want to marry him. I wish that my father would get that. He dosn't want me to have to live the life of a military wife and have to move all the time and never know when i'm going to move to a different place. but what he dosn't get is that anywhere Jayson is is home i fell like i'm at home when i'm with him. i miss him all the time and since i have no where else to say this i'm going to do it here. no one ever reads this because noone ever comes on here any more. i took over all jays bills and stuff, but i'm paying it with his money and others are worried because i have access to all of his money, but thats because he trusts me and knows that i would never take his money and he says he dosn't care if i take it he wants to take care of me like i take care of him. i don't know this is kinda crazy. i guess this is pretty stupid. i don't know i want to talk to Jason and i want to talk to david. i miss david, i could always talk to him about anything and he was my best friend and i miss him to. Anyway thats it.