i smell sex and candy
i kinda feel weird, i'm kinda out of it. is it possible to miss someone so much when you only saw them yesterday. i hate questions like that they're so sappy and girly. i heard from david today and i don't really know what to think about it. denny hates him. he treated me bad when we were together but we had a weird connection that i don't know if i'll ever lose. he like knows my soul and the pain i had. he knows so much and its weird to just let him go i kinda want to but i don't know if i can. which is bad because he fucked me up.so its kinda weird to think to be friends with him considering what he did. and whats even weirder is that i don't blame him and i should because he did it and its his fault. but we connected on the pain i think that our relationship was based on the bad stuff in our lives that we inflicked and that others inflicted on us. i kinda want to be normal but i don't know what normal is and i can't remember if i ever was. i'm sad but i'm not i can't really sad what i am. i wanna take my photography pictures. i really wanna go to canada. my dark day is coming up in a few weeks which always makes me feel a little weird and a little sad. i don't know. ~chels