Love SUCKS
Love SUX
Hi,
Well now those who read the subject don't get me wrong.. Love can be good.. I'm referring to bieng in love yet loving others and having issues with yourself.. That's when love SUX... I miss having good conversations with my ex.. Now she seems to want nothing to do with me.. I love her, alot yet I'm in love with Danielle.. I'd never want to hurt or leave her... But yet I know I love Carla and wish i could still be a friend to her... But well after telling her about a rude as hell E-mail i got from her mom i got an E-mail back from her basically saying that because i'm 21 i should have never brought it up to her, and that she seems to want nothing to do with me...
This SUX... I realized alot of things in my heart and well its bieng torn in two and thers nothing no one can do to fix it.. Only I can fix it and well its making me want to die.. Hell if i could do it and get away without hurting those i love i would, but damnit i don't want to cause even more hurt.. Dumping carla caused enough to her, and I couldn't bear to know about danielle hurting... Damnit LOVE SUX...
I have way to much on my mind tonight.. And now i have to go clear my head so i won't fuck up the night with danielle.. I'm still hoping my dad lets me use the truck cuz he only said "maybe" earlier.. My car still isn't done.. Me and my dad now think its just cuz the mechanic hasn't gotten the check from my insurance company.. Damn lollygaggers...
Now i pray i don't hurt anyone with this entry, but i was bieng honest, and getting alot out.. Thats what a journal is for right??? So remember this is MY journal where I rant, let things out, etc.. So don't take it all too serious please.. ::sigh:: God I want things to go right with Carla and Danielle.. I love them both so much.. But yet it seems no matter what its loose one or both... Like I said Love can SUCK... No i'm not going to get into anymore detail........ I'm just rambling now....
~Carl
PS: Death is never an escape, no matter how much I want it to be....
Hi,
Well now those who read the subject don't get me wrong.. Love can be good.. I'm referring to bieng in love yet loving others and having issues with yourself.. That's when love SUX... I miss having good conversations with my ex.. Now she seems to want nothing to do with me.. I love her, alot yet I'm in love with Danielle.. I'd never want to hurt or leave her... But yet I know I love Carla and wish i could still be a friend to her... But well after telling her about a rude as hell E-mail i got from her mom i got an E-mail back from her basically saying that because i'm 21 i should have never brought it up to her, and that she seems to want nothing to do with me...
This SUX... I realized alot of things in my heart and well its bieng torn in two and thers nothing no one can do to fix it.. Only I can fix it and well its making me want to die.. Hell if i could do it and get away without hurting those i love i would, but damnit i don't want to cause even more hurt.. Dumping carla caused enough to her, and I couldn't bear to know about danielle hurting... Damnit LOVE SUX...
I have way to much on my mind tonight.. And now i have to go clear my head so i won't fuck up the night with danielle.. I'm still hoping my dad lets me use the truck cuz he only said "maybe" earlier.. My car still isn't done.. Me and my dad now think its just cuz the mechanic hasn't gotten the check from my insurance company.. Damn lollygaggers...
Now i pray i don't hurt anyone with this entry, but i was bieng honest, and getting alot out.. Thats what a journal is for right??? So remember this is MY journal where I rant, let things out, etc.. So don't take it all too serious please.. ::sigh:: God I want things to go right with Carla and Danielle.. I love them both so much.. But yet it seems no matter what its loose one or both... Like I said Love can SUCK... No i'm not going to get into anymore detail........ I'm just rambling now....
~Carl
PS: Death is never an escape, no matter how much I want it to be....