Oct 01, 2007 09:57
moving is such a stressful act. being poor is annoying. people oweing me lots of money and never returning my calls is painful and hurts. i thought she was my best friend but she's not. so the thought of her and i moving in together is gone, so now i have to find a place i can afford alone. my boyfriend is being great and letting me stay with him. but everyone see's me as a burden. i feel like crap all the time now. my stomach aches, my head hurts and my back feels like its in knots.
it's bad when you're thoughts revolve around jumping in front of a train.
i lack control and i'm so tired all the time. the break up wasn't hard, its the moving on that's difficult. nothing gets handed to you and well that's life.
i should go back to school, i just can't get myself to do it. i suck at life. hell i even lose at the game of life.
bah.