holy shit you guys i'm updating
hey you guys! yeah its been like a month since i last updated oopps. i sort of lack the online in melrose and the one time i walked to the library to use the internet it was closed. but im at the rents place so im updating.
so life has been...interesting. lots of lows and some highs. wont go into too much detail cause well im tired.
the big feeling i have in lonelyness. i dont know anyone other then like dave and muffy in melrose. so i manly sit at home. but i work a lot of crazy stupid hours and i go out some times. so overall its ok. thought about moving back home several times. but eh.
this time away will do me some good. get to see brian, even though we arent together anymore i'm still madly in love with him and do plan to have a future with him in some form. he compliments me well in ways no one will understand. going to see x-men with him tomorrow after i get my hair cut/dyed. not sure on the color yet. but whatever.
Dave and i are ok. we have good and bad days. i omg love falling asleep in his arms at night. its what i look forward to everyday. i love the boy like whoa even if he pisses me off and vice versa most times. the good times beat out the bad. he pushes me into reality which i hate most of the time cause i like my lil false world but its best in the long run.
my daddy leaves for training for iraq in a week. but he wont be going to iraq till september where i will be taking a week off to spend with him and my mom. i hate that he's leaving with a fucking passion. but my number one concern is my mother who i will drop everything in the world to help. i'll quit my job and move back home in a drop of a hat if she says she needs me. no questions asked. my mom is my most favorte person cause shes the sweetest funniest woman in the whole world. i love her to death.
seeing my kitty today made me sad cause i miss the lil bitch like crazy. hes the best cat ever and i just wish i could have him with me in melrose. but i cant. :(
i miss alot of things but i'm trying to make friends at work and mabe soon be able to hang out with them outside of work soon. the whole not having friends thing is really making me depressed. i think overall i'm just depressed. i miss brian all the time now. his lame jokes his lame football card collection and wrestling obsession. hes the sweetest guy and i totally love him. but i got too used to him being down the road that i want him to be just down the road again. he's my rock. whenever i'm down he makes me smile with some stupid joke or funny face. he brings out the best in me and it sucks that we couldnt work with me being so far away. and yeah he was an ass for not trying, but i cant hate him.
i have a crush on my boss at work. joe is adorable. hes fun to talk to. hes my new girlie omg crush. Steve is still there too. hes not going away anytime soon.
so yeah i'm going to bed. or watching tv. i dunno im going to have to walk by the tv and with my attention span i'll prolly sit and watch it. so yeah ttyl
so life has been...interesting. lots of lows and some highs. wont go into too much detail cause well im tired.
the big feeling i have in lonelyness. i dont know anyone other then like dave and muffy in melrose. so i manly sit at home. but i work a lot of crazy stupid hours and i go out some times. so overall its ok. thought about moving back home several times. but eh.
this time away will do me some good. get to see brian, even though we arent together anymore i'm still madly in love with him and do plan to have a future with him in some form. he compliments me well in ways no one will understand. going to see x-men with him tomorrow after i get my hair cut/dyed. not sure on the color yet. but whatever.
Dave and i are ok. we have good and bad days. i omg love falling asleep in his arms at night. its what i look forward to everyday. i love the boy like whoa even if he pisses me off and vice versa most times. the good times beat out the bad. he pushes me into reality which i hate most of the time cause i like my lil false world but its best in the long run.
my daddy leaves for training for iraq in a week. but he wont be going to iraq till september where i will be taking a week off to spend with him and my mom. i hate that he's leaving with a fucking passion. but my number one concern is my mother who i will drop everything in the world to help. i'll quit my job and move back home in a drop of a hat if she says she needs me. no questions asked. my mom is my most favorte person cause shes the sweetest funniest woman in the whole world. i love her to death.
seeing my kitty today made me sad cause i miss the lil bitch like crazy. hes the best cat ever and i just wish i could have him with me in melrose. but i cant. :(
i miss alot of things but i'm trying to make friends at work and mabe soon be able to hang out with them outside of work soon. the whole not having friends thing is really making me depressed. i think overall i'm just depressed. i miss brian all the time now. his lame jokes his lame football card collection and wrestling obsession. hes the sweetest guy and i totally love him. but i got too used to him being down the road that i want him to be just down the road again. he's my rock. whenever i'm down he makes me smile with some stupid joke or funny face. he brings out the best in me and it sucks that we couldnt work with me being so far away. and yeah he was an ass for not trying, but i cant hate him.
i have a crush on my boss at work. joe is adorable. hes fun to talk to. hes my new girlie omg crush. Steve is still there too. hes not going away anytime soon.
so yeah i'm going to bed. or watching tv. i dunno im going to have to walk by the tv and with my attention span i'll prolly sit and watch it. so yeah ttyl