i TEAR MY HEART OPEN...JUST TO FEEL;;*
im really upset right now and i need to vent. woke up this morning with my period and lets just say it wasnt a pleasant surprise. i knew it would be a bad day because it started off shitty. anyways, i called brian when i woke up and he said he was walking to chester and he was by the high school. i told him i would pick him up so i did. from the moment i saw him today hes been pissed off. he wont tell me why and its making me really mad. we've been fighting and shit and he hung up on me. if there's one thing that pisses me off more than anything its when someone hangs up on me. i got really pissed and started crying and im still really sad. i hate fighting with him. i love him too much so when i fight with him it really hurts. just writing this is making me cry again....god damnit. i need to smoke. thats probably what im gonna go do. theres nothing better to do...my life sucks so much ad it makes me happy so i dont give a fuck what no one says. if you dont like it, FUCK YOU i dont need anyone's approval. its my fucking life and i'll do whatever the fuck i want. brian and i have been talking about getting married. thats another big reason why im stressed out. i dont even have a good enough father to walk me down the aisle. its amazing how i have a step-father and a biological father, and neither one of them has been there for me. ugh i hate life. gotta go.
x0x jackie
x0x jackie