i'm sad
I think i really do miss having a girlfriend. i saw this gal i use to date and it reminded me of better times in my life when i was alot different of a person. now granted that time was when i was in high school but from what i recall that was the most serious i had ever been for a girl. i miss just having someone who cares for me that much and worries for me as much as i worry for them. my opinions on life and love have changed this is true but i still miss having someone to show up with somewhere hand in hand and someone who i can make public diplays of effection with and make my friends sick. i miss sitting along the lake just holding someone when its cold and waves crasing at our legs but never complaining a second because we had each other. my taste in women has evolved alot from that and past relationships. i believe i need someone more intelligent than that and someone who isn't so superficial and can accept me for all my querks and my joking personality. i need someone who can recognize that i'm not who i use to be and that i am an individual and am doing my own thing now and i'm not gonna go with the crowd and dress like everyone else just to attract someone because thats a stupid thing to be attracted to. i find personality probably to be the most attractive feature of a girl. a girl who can appreciate a good joke and a good show, thats the bomb chick for me i'd say. i guess really what i am getting at is that i want to find love and its really hard at the point i am at right now. maybe someone will read this and understand the view i am coming from and maybe even take me up on a date, but the likelyhood of that happening isn't working in my favor and if i was making bets i'd bet against it and be a rich man.