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goooooood song. old song, but gooooood song!!
so hows life? hmm.. not too shabby. kinda wierd tho!
mark got suspended today - topher got suspended yesterday!! jeeze*
pshhh - boys. god dammit! haha thats kinda funny though. like mark got suspending for titty twisting micaela --- 10-15 yrs ago, ppl got suspended for like giving someone a swirley - or w/e. damn - wow... society has changed!
so thats kinda it. mr. rand was out today -- yay! :-D
so follow up of last entry - basically.. my point was that jenna & elise were my best friends here & theyve changed into ppl that arent usually who i am best friends w/. not to sound mean, but im just saying how i feel.
sam asked me a couple days ago if i realized that they do shit cuz they wanna do it? and my answer is yah. thats kinda whats bothering me the most. the fact that they WANT to do it - and they made the decision knowing what it had for them.
hmmm -- idk. i guess we'll just move off of that subject. alls im trying to say is thats why im not as tight w/ them. i dont hate them ... i dont not like them - i just dont feel like we're set for being the best friends that i thought we were.
i wonder if people ever get to the point where they just stop loving anymore.
for real!! - like this past year or so... its been a hell of a year. most of its prolly ALL my fault, but it still kills. but everytime my heart is broken - whether its a boy, friend, ex-friend, or family... i realize that its taking over my mind, and i go and distract myself on a new friend or a new boy or w/e. --- i just try to move on & i get my heart broken again.
i dont know how to do it. and maybe this is how life is. maybe thats how we're supposed to live -- like we love & things dont work out - so we love again & so on. idk
so lifes kinda crazy for me right now. i have a really hard time telling personal things to people so idk. but im so confuddled w/ life right now! - its nothing big but o well.
so - i guess thats all. ::tonight:: - hmm...
well idk. i think tracy sarah & micaela are coming over. - and then BC & zak & Terence & whoever else. we're broke! -- well i actualy have enough money to go to the movies, but its funner saving! :-D
what to say - what to say? last night we had softball - i sucked. i get too nervous in front of everyone.... like before practice, me & my dad showed up like 20 min early. and i was throwiing FULL court w/ him. - it was hard.
and i could get him PERFECTLY. then @ the end of practice, harris told 3 of us to try & throw a lil further than half court, and i BOMBED IT!! i was so embarrassed. and pissed!
ya so that sucked.
my parents think that LJs are viruses and theyre bad sites. - im like hmm? well lets see. ive had a LJ since like July? i think we'd realize it by now if theyre viruses... psh.
so thats kinda it. nothings really up w/ the boy toys - psh. nothings ever up for me. damn...
k - well im gon go. i hope erryones week was spectaculous! and to mark & topher - ill miss yas next week. **MWAHZ-A-MILLIONZ** :'(
have fun in the snow!!! yay.
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