best friend
everyday we meet new people and you never who or when that person is going to play such a big role in your life. i finally realized why a best friend is so important in a girls life. its that feeling when you know.. some one will always be there. when you hook up with that guy and regret it after. when you don't know who to tell after cause you're a little embaressed and the feeling of wanting to just tell SOMEBODY. instead of having it kept all inside. your secret. and knowing that best friend will be there to listen to you. and not judge you but understand you. listens to you. laughs with you. tells you its all goooood. laugh about the situation and to ask you afterwards "so.. HOW WAS IT!??!?!" the laughter. that feeling of regret completely going away. when you feel everybody in the world turns their back on you. your best friend always just seems to BE there. even when you don't talk for a few days or few weeks you know they won't be gone. the one person you can be millions of miles away from home but still feel safe because there presence is like home. losing a best friend is like losing a boyfriend. something big has just left on you. and you have that empty feeling of not knowing who to turn to afterwards. that best friend you can tell absolutely anything too. when you have a boyfriend and still be able to say "omg.. dude that guy is fucking hot." and your best friend laughing along with you saying HAHAH I KNOW!! and that best friend not going around telling your boyfriend "yeah she thinks he's hot" because we keep that to ourselves. a best friend is the person that even when you get in a big fight. you can still trust them with your secrets. because that bond and that respect is still there. knowing you will talk again. best friends are such a big part in somebodys life. and everybody should have at least ONE best friend. because who the fuck wouldn't want one? everybody wants that ONE person that will always understand you & never judge you. even when they don't agree with the decisions you make they still love you to death. when you fuck up they still love you. laugh with you. know what your saying without saying a word. talk shit with you. do everything with. share your dirty secrets with. and to just laugh about it. telling that person what you did with that one boy and them not thinking your some whore like the rest of the world would. where nothing in the world matters cause their presence is so comforting that shit really doesn't matter. when that best friend will cry with you. not because they are sad about their problems but they're sad to see you cry. and they feel the same pain. best friends are like sisters. they feel that pain. they know you better then anybody else. and they are always there. they are almost like a lover but not in that way. best friends are better then boy friends. and even when you have a boy friend and don't talk to that best friend its because you guys understand each other. you know how it is to have a guy. and you respect the decision that you might want to hang out with that boy friend a little more. and i'm so glad i have my very own best friend. i love you vivienne chiang.
