and i will be singing, singing to only you....
i feel extremely tired right now and i dont know why...today wasnt too bad....tho mr katz went off on how we're a crappy honors class...like usual except for longer. us gov. rawked like always...talked and did notes and a review worksheet.lunch was fun. jessay and brandan sat with us. and jessay had pictures from homecoming....fun stuff. english sucked...i was in a pissy mood.revelle went off about how we're not an honors class and all this bs....shes so effing annoying...she gave me a D on my russian revolution paper.i mean i know it was definetely not my best work but it wasn't worth a D atleast a C. But shes evil....art was okay...worked on my goblet thingy...re-did the pinch pots and now it looks alot better and started on the slab stars on it...so its gonna be hawtness...the bus ride home was okay cause i was hyper...had to walk home wiht just erik and chrissypoo cause tina and kristy stayed after for the basketball game.i havent really done much this afternoon..talked to meg and marmar and megan...sat around looked for stuff for the us gov. paper which i plan on procrastonating on doing until tomarrow with all my other homework....im so lazy...i just dont care i guess.i dont like school really.except for dance class pretty much everything else sucks...alot. i like dance at the studio too... but my love life is non-existent now and its sad...very sad.pretty soon i will be the only one of my best friends not in a good relationship...and im dead serious too...soon enough and im already unhappy and feeling bad about it and i hate it . i love my friends to death though i couldnt ask for better people in my lives...they've helped me through so much ...but i feel so distant lately from everybody pretty much...except ryan and i dont know why...ryry wasnt here today and i missed him cause usually whenever im feeling like crap im just like ryan i need a hug and it makes me feel better...ryan and i isnt going to happen again...we both know it.i could have had everything i wanted but i dont want it for some unknown reason i guess...i really could sleep forever...just lie there i guess thinking about ..well everything ...im feeling really distant these days...so distant