three-eight-six
Time for some actual updates, I think.
My grades are rock-bottom low again, and I'm trying to fix that, I really am. Let's hope it works
I've been an emotional wreck for the past few days. There was a paper I didn't finish that got me all stressed out, then I missed the deadline for an application for something else because I was gone on Monday, and I felt sick yesterday, and my Mom has no job and my Grandma's getting sick and forgetting things and my great Aunt who turned a hundred last summer just passed away.
And I can't understand what Ueki-sensei is saying in Japanese, and I fall asleep in Mythology, and Biology is always a mess of nothing to me and I feel like either eating my house or not eating at all.
I don't know what part to write of my vampires next because the He Ahuv storyline which just made so much sense is now a tangled ball of string.
And Sai's mom has been evil lately and my mom's been crazy and Nekochan couldn't come over yesterday and my room's a mess and I haven't taken any photographs in almost two weeks. And Kal and Tsukichan were kissing next to me today and I thought I was going to explode, and everyone's going to prom except me, and Elizabethan English only sort of makes sense sometimes.
And this morning I couldn't talk but I also couldn't leave, and I don't think I'll end up on those ADHD meds, and my mother thinks I should be able to do this on my own, and she's mad at me for not being able to function, and blows it off when I tell her I feel like crap. If I called her and left a voicemail saying I was suicidal she'd call back and tell me to stop being stupid and get off my ass and do my homework.
I am not happy. I am not sad. I don't like Strella or Morona and neither of them is here anyway.
I want to go to sleep. And sleep and sleep and sleep.
My grades are rock-bottom low again, and I'm trying to fix that, I really am. Let's hope it works
I've been an emotional wreck for the past few days. There was a paper I didn't finish that got me all stressed out, then I missed the deadline for an application for something else because I was gone on Monday, and I felt sick yesterday, and my Mom has no job and my Grandma's getting sick and forgetting things and my great Aunt who turned a hundred last summer just passed away.
And I can't understand what Ueki-sensei is saying in Japanese, and I fall asleep in Mythology, and Biology is always a mess of nothing to me and I feel like either eating my house or not eating at all.
I don't know what part to write of my vampires next because the He Ahuv storyline which just made so much sense is now a tangled ball of string.
And Sai's mom has been evil lately and my mom's been crazy and Nekochan couldn't come over yesterday and my room's a mess and I haven't taken any photographs in almost two weeks. And Kal and Tsukichan were kissing next to me today and I thought I was going to explode, and everyone's going to prom except me, and Elizabethan English only sort of makes sense sometimes.
And this morning I couldn't talk but I also couldn't leave, and I don't think I'll end up on those ADHD meds, and my mother thinks I should be able to do this on my own, and she's mad at me for not being able to function, and blows it off when I tell her I feel like crap. If I called her and left a voicemail saying I was suicidal she'd call back and tell me to stop being stupid and get off my ass and do my homework.
I am not happy. I am not sad. I don't like Strella or Morona and neither of them is here anyway.
I want to go to sleep. And sleep and sleep and sleep.