ladybug bag.
i'm struggling to keep my head above water; even though i know how to swim, my buoyancy decreases by the seconds as my will to fight diffuses through my pores. I wonder how i ended up in this endurance test, remembering I wanted it this way. I thought it'd be healthy, thought I'd grow stronger instead of losing strength without gaining anything in return. i am not your average mormon girl. i am not your average freshman. i'm not homesick, i'm friendsick. it's a greek tragedy: the hackneyed, wholly predictable end where no one wins. i never realized people cared so much until i left. now i spend my time in solitude on rooftops, enjoying the breathtaking scenery and the stars, the constant, reliable beauty of the stars. Espero que podria ser tan brillante como las estrellas, pero creo que nunca sea posible. es verdadero, que estoy una causa perdida. o es asi realmente? solamente podemos esperar y ver como pasata el futuro ... nunca puedes saber. quiero saber quien sabe. quiero saber.