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OK THOUGHT THAT MY LIIFE WAS GOOD UNTIL TODAY WHEN I WENT IN TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND AND ALL OF HER NEW FRIENDS ASKED ME WY WE WERE NOT FRIENDS ANYMORE. AS YOU CAN IMAGINE THIS CAME AS A VERY BIG SHOCK TO ME BECAUSE I LOVE HER VERY MUCH AND CANT GO THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT HER IN IT.
I KNOW THAT THEY SAY YOU CANNOT FIND LOVE WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG. BUT I HAVE AND IT IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. IM TRYING TO GET PAST THE DRAMA WITH MY FRIENDS ABOUT IT BECAUSE IF I THINK ABOUT THEM AND THERE ACTIONS ABOUT ME HAVING A BOYFRIEND I COULD CRY BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE HURT ME BECAUSE THEY DONT UNDERSTAND. I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY ABOUT SOMEONE AND NEVER HAVE WANTED TO MAKE SOMEONE MORE HAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE WOULD WANT TO RUEN THAT FOR ME. I WOULD NEVER DO THAT TO THEM AND I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY ARE DOING THAT TO ME NOW.
ON MY AIM PROFILE I SAID THAT I WAS STARTING A NEW LIFE. I DIDNT MEAN THAT THEY WAY IT CAME OUT AND THE WAY THAT PEOPLE TOOK IT HAS HURT THEIR FEELINGS SO IM JUST TAKING SOME TIME TO CLEAR THINGS UP. THIS YEAR MY FRIEND CHELSA STARTED COLOR GUARD AND SHE IS REALLY HAPPY WITH THAT. BUT THE THING IS MY LIFE REVOLVED AROUND BEING WITH HER AND EVERYTHING THAT WENT ON IN OUR LIVES TOGETHER WHICH WAS USUALLY THE SAME THING BECUAUSE WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER. WELL NOW WE REALLY DONT GET TO HANG OUT BECAUSE SHE IS ALWAYS DOING SOMETHING FOR COLOR GUALR WETHER IT BE CAR WASHES OR COMPETITIONS OR PRACTICES HER WEEK IS REALLY PLANED OUE FOR HER. WELL THAT LEFT ME WTH NOTHING TO DO AND I CANT HANDLE BEING BY MYSELF. I DONT LIKE BEING ALONE ALL THE TIME AND IM SURE THZAT MOST OF YOU DONT EITHER. WELL I WENT OUT LOOKING FOR SOMEONE THAT WAS LIKE ME THAT WAS NOT LIKE CHELSEA AND WOULD NOT GIVE ME WEIRD L0OKS FOR EVERY LITTLE THING THAT I DID. WELL THAT SEARCH ENDED UP BEING VERY SHORT BECAUSE I FOUND SOMEONE THAT WAS LOOKING FOR THE SAME THING. JAMIE, WELL WE BECAME VERY GOOD FRIENDS FASTER THEN EITHER OF US EXPECTED AND WE WERE IN THE SAME POINT IN OUR LIVES. EVERYTHING BECAME A BLUR AND BEFORE I KNEW IT I WAS SPENDING A LOT OF OR ALMOST ALL OF MY TIME WITH JAMIE. BUT I JUST AM MAKING THIS CLEAR AND EVERYONE KNOWS IT. I HAVE GONE THROUGH A LOT OF CRAP WITH CHELSEA AND NOONE OUTSIDE OF HER AND MY FAMILY WITH EVER KNOW A LOT ABOUT ME.
ALRIGHT GREAT LIL SOB STORY THAT WILL TAKE FOREVER TO READ IM TIRED I HAVE TO GO
LOVE JEN
I KNOW THAT THEY SAY YOU CANNOT FIND LOVE WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG. BUT I HAVE AND IT IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. IM TRYING TO GET PAST THE DRAMA WITH MY FRIENDS ABOUT IT BECAUSE IF I THINK ABOUT THEM AND THERE ACTIONS ABOUT ME HAVING A BOYFRIEND I COULD CRY BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE HURT ME BECAUSE THEY DONT UNDERSTAND. I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY ABOUT SOMEONE AND NEVER HAVE WANTED TO MAKE SOMEONE MORE HAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE WOULD WANT TO RUEN THAT FOR ME. I WOULD NEVER DO THAT TO THEM AND I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY ARE DOING THAT TO ME NOW.
ON MY AIM PROFILE I SAID THAT I WAS STARTING A NEW LIFE. I DIDNT MEAN THAT THEY WAY IT CAME OUT AND THE WAY THAT PEOPLE TOOK IT HAS HURT THEIR FEELINGS SO IM JUST TAKING SOME TIME TO CLEAR THINGS UP. THIS YEAR MY FRIEND CHELSA STARTED COLOR GUARD AND SHE IS REALLY HAPPY WITH THAT. BUT THE THING IS MY LIFE REVOLVED AROUND BEING WITH HER AND EVERYTHING THAT WENT ON IN OUR LIVES TOGETHER WHICH WAS USUALLY THE SAME THING BECUAUSE WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER. WELL NOW WE REALLY DONT GET TO HANG OUT BECAUSE SHE IS ALWAYS DOING SOMETHING FOR COLOR GUALR WETHER IT BE CAR WASHES OR COMPETITIONS OR PRACTICES HER WEEK IS REALLY PLANED OUE FOR HER. WELL THAT LEFT ME WTH NOTHING TO DO AND I CANT HANDLE BEING BY MYSELF. I DONT LIKE BEING ALONE ALL THE TIME AND IM SURE THZAT MOST OF YOU DONT EITHER. WELL I WENT OUT LOOKING FOR SOMEONE THAT WAS LIKE ME THAT WAS NOT LIKE CHELSEA AND WOULD NOT GIVE ME WEIRD L0OKS FOR EVERY LITTLE THING THAT I DID. WELL THAT SEARCH ENDED UP BEING VERY SHORT BECAUSE I FOUND SOMEONE THAT WAS LOOKING FOR THE SAME THING. JAMIE, WELL WE BECAME VERY GOOD FRIENDS FASTER THEN EITHER OF US EXPECTED AND WE WERE IN THE SAME POINT IN OUR LIVES. EVERYTHING BECAME A BLUR AND BEFORE I KNEW IT I WAS SPENDING A LOT OF OR ALMOST ALL OF MY TIME WITH JAMIE. BUT I JUST AM MAKING THIS CLEAR AND EVERYONE KNOWS IT. I HAVE GONE THROUGH A LOT OF CRAP WITH CHELSEA AND NOONE OUTSIDE OF HER AND MY FAMILY WITH EVER KNOW A LOT ABOUT ME.
ALRIGHT GREAT LIL SOB STORY THAT WILL TAKE FOREVER TO READ IM TIRED I HAVE TO GO
LOVE JEN