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Love? what is this love that you speak of? All i see is lies.
So.. Today is really boring.. i cant help but feel alone.. i dont kno why and i dont really care, but it will soon hit me.. i had to sing at church today.. well like 2 lines of a song but still.. i sung..lol.. next sunday i have to sing a song by casting crowns.. yep yep.. im not to happy about that.. but its either that or i give a testimonial.. and i dont feel like writing one..
What you are about to read is nothing but complaning.. so if u dont wanna hear me go on and on about nothin at all then dont read on..
Hmm.. yea so david keeps leaving offline messages for me on yahoo.. and um.. its about to drive me insane.. no joke.. he keeps telling me how he regrets breaking up with me and that he misses me, and how he cant stop thinkin about me.. and all this..and the only thing i say to him is .. u broke my heart and made me cry, and now u tell me this?.. i mean frill.. COME ON!! WHY CANT GUYS JUST GET IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME!?! i cant help but think about him, and how much i loved spending time with him.. he was my only b/f ever that would hold my hand in front of his friends.. and tell me he loves me in front of friends, and so on and so forth.. i keep thinking about hanging out at the fleemarket, and my house, and at his house,.. and he NEVER pressured me to do anything i didnt want to.. he just told me how much he loved me and how he couldnt do anything with out me.. WELL IT LOOKS LIKE HE CAN DO EVERYTHING WITH OUT ME!! srry i just need to vent and if i dont feel like writing all of it so i am typing.. but yea.. why does he have to be the way that he is? i mean he is even younger than me!! I DONT DATE YOUNGER PEOPLE!! but he acts like he is older.. and he talks like he is really mature and he actually care... AHH!! *looks down as a tear rolls down cheek* i dont kno what to do.. i want him back but i kno that will never happen.. and it just breaks me heart even more to kno that.. ahh.. i dont want to sleep because its him i dream of, and i dont want to wake because its him i think of. if i just keep busy mayb i wont think of him.. but i kno in the back of my mind he will be there.. he will always be there.. i dont kno why i just cant forget him.. i try so hard to... my parents tell me that i can do anything i want to do.. does that mean i dont want to forget him? but i do want to.. so bad.. but then why cant i? mayb my parents just lie? because they want me to believe that one day he will be out of my heart for good.. i will never believe that.. i kno that this is not a big problem.. but i cant consintrate on anything but him.. and its driving me insane.. short trip i kno.. but still..
I apologize for that.. i just had to vent.. u dont have to read it.. i kinda wish that you wouldnt read it.. cuz it makes me feel weak.. but its there if anyone cares..
Love is blind and hurts like hell,
Love or Lust? no one can tell.
Krissy
Love? what is this love that you speak of? All i see is lies.
So.. Today is really boring.. i cant help but feel alone.. i dont kno why and i dont really care, but it will soon hit me.. i had to sing at church today.. well like 2 lines of a song but still.. i sung..lol.. next sunday i have to sing a song by casting crowns.. yep yep.. im not to happy about that.. but its either that or i give a testimonial.. and i dont feel like writing one..
What you are about to read is nothing but complaning.. so if u dont wanna hear me go on and on about nothin at all then dont read on..
Hmm.. yea so david keeps leaving offline messages for me on yahoo.. and um.. its about to drive me insane.. no joke.. he keeps telling me how he regrets breaking up with me and that he misses me, and how he cant stop thinkin about me.. and all this..and the only thing i say to him is .. u broke my heart and made me cry, and now u tell me this?.. i mean frill.. COME ON!! WHY CANT GUYS JUST GET IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME!?! i cant help but think about him, and how much i loved spending time with him.. he was my only b/f ever that would hold my hand in front of his friends.. and tell me he loves me in front of friends, and so on and so forth.. i keep thinking about hanging out at the fleemarket, and my house, and at his house,.. and he NEVER pressured me to do anything i didnt want to.. he just told me how much he loved me and how he couldnt do anything with out me.. WELL IT LOOKS LIKE HE CAN DO EVERYTHING WITH OUT ME!! srry i just need to vent and if i dont feel like writing all of it so i am typing.. but yea.. why does he have to be the way that he is? i mean he is even younger than me!! I DONT DATE YOUNGER PEOPLE!! but he acts like he is older.. and he talks like he is really mature and he actually care... AHH!! *looks down as a tear rolls down cheek* i dont kno what to do.. i want him back but i kno that will never happen.. and it just breaks me heart even more to kno that.. ahh.. i dont want to sleep because its him i dream of, and i dont want to wake because its him i think of. if i just keep busy mayb i wont think of him.. but i kno in the back of my mind he will be there.. he will always be there.. i dont kno why i just cant forget him.. i try so hard to... my parents tell me that i can do anything i want to do.. does that mean i dont want to forget him? but i do want to.. so bad.. but then why cant i? mayb my parents just lie? because they want me to believe that one day he will be out of my heart for good.. i will never believe that.. i kno that this is not a big problem.. but i cant consintrate on anything but him.. and its driving me insane.. short trip i kno.. but still..
I apologize for that.. i just had to vent.. u dont have to read it.. i kinda wish that you wouldnt read it.. cuz it makes me feel weak.. but its there if anyone cares..
Love is blind and hurts like hell,
Love or Lust? no one can tell.
Krissy
Love? what is this love that you speak of? All i see is lies.