hey LJ!
hey LJ!!
well, i'm not in the best of moods right now...um...i'm not mad, sad, happy, just blah.....this is the first i've felt like this in a while....usually it has been mad/sad but right now i'm just blah. iono why. i just don't feel like talking and feel very tired.....very empty..i don't like this feeling....not at all. i'm sure that when i call courtney later, assuming that she won't be harmonizing, that i'll feel better...but until then...i'm blah.**breaks a smile**
umm,....i haven't done anything in like 3 weeks....i mean i went to see Bewitched with lindsay, but my mind was on other things.....and then movie sucked.i had fun though.she likes my hair now cuz it's ....well, i'll say "long" , but i need to cut it cuz the bitch messed up my bangs and they are uneven.
Oh, i also feel very alone....i mean courtney is busy, and she's the one i usually talk to, so now i have no one.....and it's not that i don't have friends...it's just i don't feel like being a friend to people right now....it's too much work. i don't want to have to fake a smile when i'm hanging out with people, i want to be happy, and that's not something that i've been able to accomplish . can anyone please help me.....one smile cold brighten my day :)
i have been at my dad's house since last friday....i'm home now, but it has been murder. i miss tina cendra cae and brittany and courtney and them.....hmm.....life doesn't always work out though.
do you know what i hate? i hate being fine all day, and then laying down to sleep only for things to start rushing through my mind like when a fat lady wants ice cream.....uncontrolable. i hate it.....i'm really only thinking about like 3 things, but they ae big things...really big.
well, i'm tired and blah so, i'm gonna stay AIM for like a few more minutes, and then go to bed.
~chow~
well, i'm not in the best of moods right now...um...i'm not mad, sad, happy, just blah.....this is the first i've felt like this in a while....usually it has been mad/sad but right now i'm just blah. iono why. i just don't feel like talking and feel very tired.....very empty..i don't like this feeling....not at all. i'm sure that when i call courtney later, assuming that she won't be harmonizing, that i'll feel better...but until then...i'm blah.**breaks a smile**
umm,....i haven't done anything in like 3 weeks....i mean i went to see Bewitched with lindsay, but my mind was on other things.....and then movie sucked.i had fun though.she likes my hair now cuz it's ....well, i'll say "long" , but i need to cut it cuz the bitch messed up my bangs and they are uneven.
Oh, i also feel very alone....i mean courtney is busy, and she's the one i usually talk to, so now i have no one.....and it's not that i don't have friends...it's just i don't feel like being a friend to people right now....it's too much work. i don't want to have to fake a smile when i'm hanging out with people, i want to be happy, and that's not something that i've been able to accomplish . can anyone please help me.....one smile cold brighten my day :)
i have been at my dad's house since last friday....i'm home now, but it has been murder. i miss tina cendra cae and brittany and courtney and them.....hmm.....life doesn't always work out though.
do you know what i hate? i hate being fine all day, and then laying down to sleep only for things to start rushing through my mind like when a fat lady wants ice cream.....uncontrolable. i hate it.....i'm really only thinking about like 3 things, but they ae big things...really big.
well, i'm tired and blah so, i'm gonna stay AIM for like a few more minutes, and then go to bed.
~chow~