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[xcolonelx]

i sign on. i never expected to see your name there. well, no not that. i never expected to react to seeing your name there. i think of talking to you but i put the idea at the back of my mind. but it keeps bugging me. so, sure i check your newest entry, where is the harm in that? words i don't understand about things that don't mean anything to me. but still my heart is pounding. i'm nervous, upset. i don't know why. i'd like for things to be resolved. i probably messed any chance of that ever happening though. and to think a year and a half ago you were crying and all i had to offer you was an apple.

words. after weeks now i think. a conversation.

heart poundin' like crazy.