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Nov 08, 2003 11:22

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis"

It is when you stop going along with the crowd
and
start realizing that there are many things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where
you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were so close to aren't exactly the greatest
people you have ever met, and the people you
have
lost touch with are some of the most
important
ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are
realizing that too, and aren't really cold,
catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing, or
maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you
are going to have to start at the bottom and
that
scares you

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see
what
others are doing and find yourself judging
more
than usual because suddenly you realize that
you
have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the
next,
secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest
force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly,
change is the enemy and you try and cling on
to
the past with dear life, but soon realize that
the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you
are
or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone
you loved could do such damage to you. Or
you lie
in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know
better.

Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else
too and cannot figure out why you are doing
this
because you know that you aren't a bad
person.

One night stands and random hook ups start
to
look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an
idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the
same emotions and questions over and over,
and
talk with your friends about the same topics
because you cannot seem to make a
decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning
the race would be great, right now you'd just
like to be contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone
reading
this relates to it. We are in our best of times
and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can
to figure this whole thing out.

Send this to your twenty-something friends...
maybe it will help someone feel like they
aren't
alone in their state of confusion.

May you have enough happiness to make you
sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human,
enough hope to make you happy.
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