My life
I know on the surface I might seem so average and... contented with my life. But inside, I'm fucked up. I miss this girl whom I was once so close to. But looking at the way she treated me.. nah I don't think I deserve the bullshit she gave me when I didn't do anything. maybe I did, but I did apologise. Not once, but quite a number of times. I don't know why but I think my happiness is always shortlived. Yeah I might be happy for awhile, but there will always be other things happening that brings everything down. Right now, I feel.............. Nothing. Nothing at all. There are only 3 people I can REALLY trust right now. But I'd rather not name because I think they should know who they are. But, on the other hand, I feel.. Sad. Because things are always happening because of me. I feel like a jinx. Like I was born to make bad things happen. I bet some of you secretly think I am too. I just want everything to end quickly. I want to be happy. Why is it so hard? I miss being a kid. I miss not having to worry about anything...
God won't you let be happy??? Sorry
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