Bad Habits...
I have a bad habit of spending a lot of money (well, a lot to me!) and not knowing where it goes. I am going to start posting a little breakdown on here to try and track it better. My makeup addiction really needs to stop, especially now since I don't have a job. I have another journal (xtine.wordpress.com) for my eating habits, which I think is an amazing idea. Christi, Candy & I have been doing amazingly well with the eating less and more healthily. I hope to see results from that soon!
I also wanted to share a little something that I experienced recently. If you're not the least bit interested in my religous experiences, skip this next part!
I recently started going to church with the help from Stephanie (from EMC). I thought, "what the heck" , I needed to start anyway so I might as well do it now. I went last sunday and got rededicated to the Lord and at first I didn't feel much differently but with eacy day passing it's blatant to me that my life is changing for the better. I started praying that sunday too, and am slowly getting into the habit of reading as much of the New Testament as possible. It's been a slow start, but it's been amazing so far.
Prayer works, and I have proof that it does. My friend Jen recently was hospitalized because she's been in labor with her triplets for a few weeks now. She's just barely 7 months along so I was upset to see her in there already. I prayed for her, for God to help her out and keep those babies healthy. Just this past Friday Jeff told me that she got to go home! They calmed those babies down and for now they're staying put. I can't say this would or wouldn't have happened if I hadn't prayed, but my faith is increasingly fading in coincidence. Another scenario futher proves that prayer is an amazing tool. I have been having tons of problems with my babysitter for James and it's been a back and forth battle with her since the beginning of the week (if you want the whole story, ask me sometime). I asked God to help me with it, since I wasn't really sure how to handle it from a certain breaking point. I was just so stressed and didn't know what to do so He helped me out, a LOT. He is no longer going to that sitter and I have scheduled 5 appointments with other sitters who I am thinking will be much more accomodating to our needs.
I realize that I can't just ask him for anything and expect it to turn out my way instantly or even all that easily. I want that strength to perservere through tough situations, not an easy way out. I want to grow into a strong and confident woman.
Jeff said something amazing this weekend (yet another way God has helped me feel better). He asked me on Saturday night, "Honey, how come you're turning into a really good person by going the gym and going to church while I'm turning into a worse person?". It floored me that he has noticed my effort in turning my life around. Maybe I shouldn't be so amazed, but I felt 100% better after hearing him say that. I am praying for him a lot and soon he will notice some change.
Spent:
$16 on bible carrier
$19 on mac (hepcat, shroom, quad)
$8 on dinner (xfer $20 from main acct to nordies cc to cover whole cost)
$66 on bke jeans (returning them though)
Bills:
$78 on Victoria's Secret
~$200 on Nordstroms CC
I also wanted to share a little something that I experienced recently. If you're not the least bit interested in my religous experiences, skip this next part!
I recently started going to church with the help from Stephanie (from EMC). I thought, "what the heck" , I needed to start anyway so I might as well do it now. I went last sunday and got rededicated to the Lord and at first I didn't feel much differently but with eacy day passing it's blatant to me that my life is changing for the better. I started praying that sunday too, and am slowly getting into the habit of reading as much of the New Testament as possible. It's been a slow start, but it's been amazing so far.
Prayer works, and I have proof that it does. My friend Jen recently was hospitalized because she's been in labor with her triplets for a few weeks now. She's just barely 7 months along so I was upset to see her in there already. I prayed for her, for God to help her out and keep those babies healthy. Just this past Friday Jeff told me that she got to go home! They calmed those babies down and for now they're staying put. I can't say this would or wouldn't have happened if I hadn't prayed, but my faith is increasingly fading in coincidence. Another scenario futher proves that prayer is an amazing tool. I have been having tons of problems with my babysitter for James and it's been a back and forth battle with her since the beginning of the week (if you want the whole story, ask me sometime). I asked God to help me with it, since I wasn't really sure how to handle it from a certain breaking point. I was just so stressed and didn't know what to do so He helped me out, a LOT. He is no longer going to that sitter and I have scheduled 5 appointments with other sitters who I am thinking will be much more accomodating to our needs.
I realize that I can't just ask him for anything and expect it to turn out my way instantly or even all that easily. I want that strength to perservere through tough situations, not an easy way out. I want to grow into a strong and confident woman.
Jeff said something amazing this weekend (yet another way God has helped me feel better). He asked me on Saturday night, "Honey, how come you're turning into a really good person by going the gym and going to church while I'm turning into a worse person?". It floored me that he has noticed my effort in turning my life around. Maybe I shouldn't be so amazed, but I felt 100% better after hearing him say that. I am praying for him a lot and soon he will notice some change.
Spent:
$16 on bible carrier
$19 on mac (hepcat, shroom, quad)
$8 on dinner (xfer $20 from main acct to nordies cc to cover whole cost)
$66 on bke jeans (returning them though)
Bills:
$78 on Victoria's Secret
~$200 on Nordstroms CC