A rant, a rave and worries
When someone asks me a question and then doesn't actually give a shit, and only asked because they were "being nice", that's not nice. Its BS. Fuck you. And your shit. I don't want people faking interest in things in my life. Fuck that. And don't try and play it off with "I'm still cute though". That's not the issue here. And do try and turn it on me saying that I'm grumpy. I just don't like people being like that. You could have said nothing, and things would be fine.
In other news, today has been good. I hung out with Hoyte(a friend of mine for some years now), who I don't see much. I talked to my therapist about Jessica and I. A lot has happened to me in between relationship break ups(8 years for those of you wondering at home). I've grown up a lot. When Sarah and I split in high school, I was completely invalidated. I had built up my worth in relation to the relationship. It completed me. And when I was dumped, I felt I had nothing to offer. Now, when Jess and I split, I know I have things to offer another person, and a relationship adds to me. I'm accepting these changes really well too. Part of it comes from understanding her reasons for letting go. For the first time in my life, I'm smiling because it happened.
I let a paper of mine fall by the wayside while working on stuff for my Thesis class and other classes. I emailed the professor, and we'll see how things go. I'm just afraid it'll tank my grade and make me waste another semester there. Ugh
In other news, today has been good. I hung out with Hoyte(a friend of mine for some years now), who I don't see much. I talked to my therapist about Jessica and I. A lot has happened to me in between relationship break ups(8 years for those of you wondering at home). I've grown up a lot. When Sarah and I split in high school, I was completely invalidated. I had built up my worth in relation to the relationship. It completed me. And when I was dumped, I felt I had nothing to offer. Now, when Jess and I split, I know I have things to offer another person, and a relationship adds to me. I'm accepting these changes really well too. Part of it comes from understanding her reasons for letting go. For the first time in my life, I'm smiling because it happened.
I let a paper of mine fall by the wayside while working on stuff for my Thesis class and other classes. I emailed the professor, and we'll see how things go. I'm just afraid it'll tank my grade and make me waste another semester there. Ugh