Jul 18, 2005 00:31
Hey,
I dont know what id wrong with me. One minute im as happy as can be the next Im crying like some retard. This is how it happend, Me and olivia were talking and we got on the subject of looks...I Then told her about my life at Sacred How shitty it was and will be. I had to walk down the halls getting dirty looks from certain people. yeah i had friends but not many..Olivia's friends were right i have no friends and i hate it i hate false rumors being spred about me i Hate having Only a few amount of people i can trust here are those people in not a certain order
Kristyn-Youre my best friend I can always trust you I love you thank you
Carly-Ive known you forever youve always showed me i can trust you I LOVE you
Taylor-Your there for me and i can feel it thank you-I Love that
Olivia-We have been friends for only about two days but i feel i can rely on you thank you i love you
Four people while most of the world has 20 or 30 that they can lean on I wish i did There have been so many rumors started about me i dont know what to do i will never be able to fight the pain its caused meI wish i could ive tried everything fighting screaming even that ignore it thing and the walk away But if i ty to shut it out it just taunts me louder, If i try to run away it will run faster I cant escape it If i didnt have people that cared for me like the ones named above i dont know how i would Live i dont know if i could live this isnt a entry to make you all feel bad for me this is and entry that is telling you what i feel and i read carly's live jounral and it said you hate people that complain in there journal well i want to say sorry but i had to get this out of my system i hope you all can understand how i feel Im sorry For this but i had to write it or it would be stuck inside me forever Im going to bed now tomorow will be a new day if i should be so lucky have a great night
Sincerally
Cassie